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HEY THERE

2007-10-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

So it has been three (?) months since I last posted.

I vowed to never post again.

But at this very moment, fury is bubbling inside of me and I just want to let it all out.

"You gotta POP POP POP, POP your top" WEEEH:

Pardon me for the nonsense, I'm just freakin pissed at the moment.

I don't think anybody reads my blog anyway (seeing that i have abandoned it)

I'm sorry, I'm just gonna bluntly vent out my frustrations. If you think I'm talking about you, I'm not. If you don't think you know who it is, you do. And if you think I'm so mad at her and I hate her, you're wrong.

I'm just frustrated, that's all.

Wondering who?? SECREEEEEET.

Itago nalang natin sa pangalang *****. HAHA.

Let's call her z.

Z was once so dear to me
We were so close, we shared our glee.
We were there for eachother even through the troubles
We...

Okay masyado nang pinagpilitan. Ayoko na magrhyme.

IN OTHER WORDS...

Close kami. as in sobra. I used to tell her EVERYTHING.

If you know me, you'd know that you don't know me. (joogeddit??) You'd know that I'm very secretive and that I keep a lot of things to myself. I don't really tell anyone about anything except my closest friends. Z was one of the fortunate few I trusted enough. I used to tell her when I was sad. I used to find comfort in her words.

Then IT happened.

She started to become soooo self-centered. I won't really state the most annoying part of the whole thing here because you (whoever you are) wouldnt understand. She started to make me feel like anything I said didn't matter. I was supposed to attend to her every cry because she had this ginormous problem she couldn't live through when actually, we were experiencing the same thing. (she got it from me, though. you wouldn't understand? When I would tell her anything about myself she'd just switch the topic so that it will center on her again. Whenever I tried to help her, she would treat me like I was so stupid and I didn't understand anything at all. She treated me like poop, she came only when somebody else wasn't there. She wanted me to be there for her but she never was there for me.

I tolerated it for a long, long time. I'm not going to lie and say that it was so easy coming to her rescue every single time. I felt soo bad. But I'm not gonna expound on how bad I felt 'cos that would make this post overly dramatic.

Guess what, I got through it. I realized I didn't have to put up with that nonsense. When I entered 2nd year, we drifted apart. I can't tell you that I miss her now because I DON'T. I know it sounds so mean but I'm actually finding life much more pleasant. I'm still bitter but I'll get through it. I'm been fine, living my life so normally without her. It doesn't mean I don't care. I just don't expect anything from her anymore.

AND THEEN. (This does NOT have a happy ending.)

She just HAS to shove herself in my face for me to pity her. Once she called me and told (not literally told, she just made me see) me that she cuts herself (laslas) I mean, WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD I HAVE TO KNOW!? We've not been talking for the last months and you suddenly tell me that!? HELLO. She wants me to pity her because when I was with her, I attended to her and I valued her so much. She even told me she cried because I was "lumalayo". WHAT DOES SHE EXPECT ME TO DO!? She wants me to run back to her to show her how much I care. I DO CARE, I'M JUST FREAKING TIRED OF FEELING SO FREAKING BAD WHEN I'M WITH HER. AND HELLO. SHE'S TELLING ME THAT IT'S MY FAULT SHE'S FEELING SO BAD NOW. WHY DOESN'T SHE MAKE AN EFFORT TO GET ME BACK!? WHY DO I HAVE OT BE THE FIRST ONE TO APPROACH HER?? I'M SO TIRED OF FIGHTING FOR THIS FRIENDSHIP WHEN I KNOW THAT IT'S GOING NOWHERE. IF SHE DOESN'T WANT TO FIGHT FOR ANYTHING, WHY DO I HAVE TO?! SHE WANTS ME TO FEEL SORRY BECAUSE SHE'S THE MOST KAWAWA PERSON ALIVE JUST TO GET ME BACK AND USE ME AGAIN!? AND NO, THIS TIME, I'M NOT GONNA LET THAT HAPPEN.

DON'T YOU DARE EXPECT ME TO FIGHT FOR THIS. I'M SO TIRED OF IT. IF YOU WANT ME BACK, YOU FIGHT FOR IT.

I'M SO PISSED, I CAN'T EVEN PUT THE OTHER FEELINGS INTO WORDS.

PISSED. PISSED. PISSED.

(sorry sa grammar, can't really articulate at the moment)

closed blog?

2007-07-03T05:24:00.000-07:00

obviously, i've desserted my blog.

sorry dears, won't be posting anymore. :)) too much drama e. :))

byebyedearblog :)

HEY!

2007-05-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think my head should be blank. I want to erase my memory bank and get rid of my brain. Thinking is always bad, remembering just triggers emotions and caring is the sure way to get hurt. I'd much rather be numb. 'Course, I can't do that.

I know that the brain is there to process information in a productive manner. Remembering isn't bad when happy memories come back and caring and loving is fun when you are loved in return. I know that when you're numb, you're life would just pass by without you even noticing. You won't get hurt, so everything would be 'okay'. Okay is not the word I would like to describe my life. Instead of being wonderful, challenging, free or any other adjective, it would only be the plain okay.

I'm talking about nonsense, forgive me. :))

I had a bad day the other day. Things were just not going as planned and the day grew darker and darker. Then suddenly, (tatararattarat!) it rained! And it felt like a huge weight was lifted off my chest! I felt so much better. I was watching TV then and when I turned the channel to Cinema One (JOLOG), the story was about this girl who looked for her dad in the states but when she arrived at his house, his wife told her he died a few years back. PARANG THANKS DIBA. UMOKAY NA NGA AKO, DUMATING PA YUN. THANKS KASI E.

Why is it that when things start to look up, another event comes along to make things wrong again. It's like flying debris are always scheduled to arrive especially when smiles are peeking through stormy clouds. It's like destiny is up against you. Wanting to throw you down every time it gets the opportunity too. It's frustrating.

SEP HAS BEEN FUN. I've been enjoying ALGEBRA (WEH WEH WEH) and I'm sad to see it end. There are 3 days left but we'll be absent 1 day because of trumpets. AYOKO MAGTRUMPETS. SEP NALANG. A BASTA, NO MORE TRUMPETS NEXT YEAR. SEP NA!! :))

Couple of weeks till start of schoolyear.
I want to expound on this pero One Tree Hill na ata.

Moment of Happiness

2007-05-08T03:19:00.000-07:00

I know I owe you a post about the whole Palawan experience with Mara but heck, my mind isn't in the mood to write about that yet.

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Yesterday was our first day in SEP! I was pretty nervous at first but it was not as bad as I expected. Thank God :P

Earlier, we took our diagnostic test and it was haaaaaaard. I've forgotton the rules on exponents already because we studied it in the first few quarters. Oh no. :S

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AY! I'm gonna share something.

This happened in Palawan with Mara during the 3rd day of our stay. We went to this island called "Snake Island" and snorkled to see the almost nonexistent coral reef. I'm gonna describe what I felt during that moment :))

Italic tayo! :)

"I was there, floating in the open sea, exhausted from negotiating through the current. I was in my life vest, floating, not knowing where to go. At that moment, I was lost. I searched for company, something to hold on to, someone who's there for me.

Then I felt it.

I slid my hands into hers and right then and there, I was contented. I was no longer lost, no longer looking for anything else. She was pulling me to the direction I was supposed to be facing, leading me there.

At that moment, I was happy.

No worries or anxieties were in my mind. All I felt was sheer contentment.

I closed my eyes, surrendering, reassured that I was safe. I was going the right way. I belonged.

I was loved by the one who took the trouble to hold my hand.

That was enough."

AND THEN THE MOMENT PASSED AND I DON'T KNOW IF I WOULD FEEL THAT HAPPY AGAIN.

That hand, was Mara's but I could've been anybody. Obviously, that was figurative. :))

I've been itching to feel that kind of contentment again. harhar.

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I'm done and itching to get out of this chair to go to the bathroom. :)) Too much info? :))

SUMMER

2007-04-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

Finally the internet's working again. HORAAAY!

Obviously, nothing's written about my summer yet. Everytime something funny or remarkable happened, I immediately thought about writing them all down in this blog. I even imagined how I would say certain stuff and the pictures I'll include.

Now that the net's ready, I forgot what I was planning to write. tssk. sayang

My summer has been BUSY. The only boring time was during the Holy Week when everything was close and I was stuck at home watching T.V.

During the first week of vacation, our school, ingenium, still had classes. During this time, I woke up VERY early to go to the school. I joined the prep class and I had so much fuuun! I didn't imagine that kids could be that lovable. Wala pang 2 weeks ko silang araw-araw nakikita, tuwang-tuwa na ako sa kanila!

soo, I want you to meet some of them! :))

First up is ELI. Eli is the 'valedictorian' of the batch. Sobra yung card ng batang yan! PURO O! itlooog! Pero would you imagine that that kid nearly missed death the night before? It was in Luis' swimming party. Eli was pushed into the deep side of the pool by an unknown kid while his parents got something to drink. When they returned, Eli was drowning and had to be pulled out of the pool. Thank God he survived. Sabi nya pa daw sa mom nya, "alam mo, feeling ko noon, mamamatay na ako." During their graduation, he delivered a speech that was so heartwarming. Galing na bata! :) buti nalang his father said he'll stay in Ingenium 'till college. HAHA. hanggang grade 4 palang ang Ingenium e! :)
Fort has a sister, Nicole who studies in Assumption. Si Fort sobrang masayahing bata! He loves to have fun and is very intelligent. We're going to Palawan tomorrow! Magiging Atenean na yang batang yan. Mamimiss ko syaa. :(
Gaby made me cry during their graduation. Kasi after the thing, the teachers were all crying while saying goodbye to each kid. Obviously, they were still crying when they hugged Gaby. And guess what, Gaby cried too! She's going to MC kasi. pffft. naiyak naman ako dun!
ISAIAH LUIS O. MACAPAGAL. Wooow, crush ko yang batang yan! :)) ANG GWAPOO NYAAAA!!! He has such a bubbly personality and whenever you see him, you can't help but smile because of his cute antics! He goofs around but is never irritating. Imaginin nyo nalang itsura nya pagdating nya sa Highschool? Magaateneo pa naman 'tong batang 'to. Crush ng Bayan to, most definately!

Moira came up to me dring the last day of class. I was seated near the side of the room when she suddenly sat on my lap with a big frown on her face. She told me this. "Si Christine (classmate) dati friend ko. Tas ngayon, biglang ayaw niya na sakin (frowning even more) Tapos si Sean (classmate din na kasama noon ni Christine) dati kinakausap din ako lagi. Pero ngayon biglang ayaw na akong kausapin." I looked into her eyes after she said that and immediately I saw how sincerely sad she was. One way or another, I felt for her. In her six-year-old mind, she experience a sad feeling. She felt left out and thought it was the end of the worl (atleast until Zoe, her classmate approached to ask a question). Moira is an actress. She landed the lead role during Ingenium's Christmas Play and she did well. In real life, she can be controlling and she readily shows her classmates how to do things much to their dismay. Maybe this is why she felt Christine and Sandy didn't like her anymore. Moira is very intelligent but her mouth gets in the way of her listening so her grades are average. She's transferring to St. Paul Pasig.

..in some ways, I see myself in her. When I imagine the six-year-old me, Moira pops into my virus-infected mind.
I once teased Luis (yes, the gwapo guy) that he had a crush on Sandy! Pero he doesn't daw. sayang, ganda pa naman ni sandy. Sandy's going to be an Assumptionista next year. Pano kaya pagdating nilang highschool. Surely, Sandy and Luis will meet again. :))

Do I smell happy ever after?
Matchmaker!

During the Graduation of these beautiful children, their parents started to cry. It was so sweeeet! Since then, I've been asking my mom why SHE didn't cry during MY graduation.! Well,, she was disappointed because I didn't receive a medal. pfft.

I'm going to put pictures of kids in my multiply again. I know it won't interest you in any way. Pero heck. I loooove them ;)

Oh! Oh! I went out with the sixth-graders nga pala the friday after the last day of class. (in other words, March23) AS EXPECTED, I HAD SO MUCH FUN!

Class Party was okay, though I was pretty disappointed at one point. ohwell, am missing I-3! :)

Trumpets time again! Remember last year when I was soo ashamed to tell you all that I joined trumpets? Well, I'm not that shy anymore! haha, I'm just having fun dancing though I don't know how too! Aaaaand, new classmates=new friends! loving it! :)

I've enrolled in SEP in Ateneo! I think I'm gonna enjoy that too. Let's just hope Camla, Alyanna, Alexa and I are classmates!

For the past *insert number here months*, people have been ranting about One Tree Hill and I've never understood them. I didn't even WANT to watch it and I didn't care at all! Then suddenly, I caught one episode in ETC then I borrowed Iya's DVD of season 1. I got it last tuesday but I was too lazy to watch right away. I started watching it the day after and got so hooked I spent 10 hours watching it.! I didn't know I missed THAT MUCH! It was amaziiiing!! By thursday, I finished the WHOLE SEASON! Addict me! sorry! :)) Now I'm excited to get the Season 2 DVD from Clara! :)) wooooow! FUN!!

After the countless number of eventful days I was disconnected from the net, I've presumably forgotten all of the things that have popped into my mind. Oh well, at the moment, this is all I've got. I'm going to be posting more often! Promise? no. haha. :)

I HOPE YOU'RE ENJOYING YOUR SUMMER AND I MISS YOU!!

P.S. We're going to Palawan on Sunday! IM EXCITED! I'm going to be with mara kasiii! Gonna have FUN! text text tayo! :)

friends forever no matter what happens friendship never ends

2007-03-20T03:45:00.000-07:00

Imagine us, 6 second graders, running down the 'hill' beside the upper kiosk singing "friends forever, no matter what happens, friendship never ends." Back in second grade we were a barkada, with our own secret handshake. We were so young, believing every promise will not be broken and every dream will come true. We promised eachother we'd be friends forever. And guess what? After 6 long years, here we are, still friends.

The line "no matter what happens" was just so superficial back in second grade. It was the tampuhan when we didn't accompany one to drink from her jug. (maeca? mara? remember?) "What happens" was limited to when one was pushed down and had a scratch on the knee. (Julia, ikaw may pakana nyan. :D) We faced gradeschool together overcoming obstacles (maecaa, wag kang mamamataay. HAHA. mara? remember the fight because of the violin? HAHA) learning so much from eachother along the way. (maeca, ako nagpapasaway sayo. :P)

It is only now that I realize that "no matter what happens" is just more than the line who sort of rhymes with "friendship never ends". I remember sixth grade, when all of us were classmates and as close as ever. I remember how happy we were then, how often we spent time on the telephone talking about gossip gossip and more gossip. (carabao? train? syrup? ay duling? duraflex?) I remember clearly how my greatest downfall happened, how low I felt back then. I remember crying everyday, feeling so rejected. (Angge naaalala mo ba yung language seatwork na by pairs. nagtulungan lang tayo nung dumaan si ms. joy). I remember missing you guys so much and I was willing to give up everything to have you back.

Now I know that miracles do happen. Despite the horrible circumstances in sixth grade and 3 people transferring schools, here we are planning to reunite on friday, equipped with our big mouths ready to tell many stories. I'm so thankful that even though horrible stuff happened, we're still friends, just like our promises to each other in second grade :)

I LOVE MIA MARA ANGGE RICA JULIA RICA AND MAECA!!
couldn't imagine gradeschool without you guys :)

can't wait for friday! waaah! excite ako :)

bounce bounce

2007-03-17T01:44:00.003-07:00

I've just finished reading Lemony Snicket's The Series of Unfortunate Events Book the Tenth: Slippery Slope.

THEN SUDDENLY. tatarattattattat!!!

bounce.

I feel like a feline (feel feline? whateverme) who's head is bobbing up and down, following the movements of a bouncing ball, facinated at its continuous movement. up and down, up and down.

adik, pusa na pala ako e. ;P

I'm amaaazed.

The law of gravity cleary states that what comes up must come down again. What's so amusing with bouncing is that what comes down will shoot up again. My complicated mind's gears are working overtime again. harhar, fun.

Maybe we're the balls, bouncing through life. We have our high moments and our low ones. Thankfully, we do go up again.

When a ball hits a hard surface with alot of force, it shoots up even higher. The harder the difficulties we encounter, the higher we will soar.

A ball looses it's momentum and stops moving. That is us giving up.

WHATEVER ME. My mind's flying but I'm too lazy to write my thoughts down properly. SORRY AH! haha, freak.

I've got to write down my english speech. Kukulitin nanaman ako ni Ms. MArah nyan. tsssk. eee, tinatamad akooo. but I have to. I HAVE TO! WHY OH WHY DO I HAVE TO WRITE IT DOWN? WHY DO SOME PEOPLE HAVE THE COMMAND TO BOSS ME AROUND TO DO STUFF? WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE SERVANT GIRL, THE ALIPIN? WHYY?

that's me loosing my sanity. HAHAHAAHA. I don't mean it, ofcourse. nababangag lang talaga ako ngayon. SHUT UP ME

SHAAAAAAAAAAATTAAAAAAAAP!

*silence*

uy tumahimik? yeees! pinakikinggan pala ako. shumashatup pag sinasabi kong magshut up.

FREAK KA LIANG FREEEAK. frikkafrikkafrik. HAHAHA whatever.

tigil na nga ako. kung anu-anong nasusulat e.

I'll write my speech here nalang. para mas madali. laboo.

LOSER.

Apartheid was once very common and widespread in the United States. There was discrimination and inequality in the treatment of the whites and the blacks. What we don't know is that discrimination is happening in our own communities too. Some people are called losers while some are winners.

Loser is a word so commonly uttered that no one really thinks about it. It is so loosely used while we tease each other and laugh at one another's mistakes. Most of us here have said this word against other people and have been called a loser. The other day, this word popped into my mind and since then, it has been trapped and looking for a way out.

Who are the losers? According to my understanding, two things make one a loser. First, people have characteristics that are inept to society's standards making them weird or even obnoxious to others. These traits make a person unique and stand out like a sore thumb among the crowd. So let me get this straight, do people lose because they're them?

Some are also called losers when they commit mistakes. When someone pronounces a word erroneously and the spelling to the simplest word is wrong, is that losing? Are you a loser when you commit a mistake?

According to one dictionary, a loser is one who fails to win. In my quest to understand who the losers are, another question popped into my mind. Who are the winners? Do you win when you've got the highest grade? Does money power and popularity equate to power? Are you a winner when the world bows down to you because you never misspell a word? Are you a winner if you're perfect?

No one in this room can raise her hand and say that she is perfect. This just proves that we are winners and losers in our own way. We all have imperfections and mistakes. We do not excel in everything. We have moments of success and failure. We are all equal. Each one has equal opportunities whether she is called a winner or a loser. Each one has the chance to show the world the beauty she possesses and is entitled to a second chance whenever she commits a mistake. Each one here has to power to make a difference, to be of service and to live her life in the best way possible. Each one can be real to herself, showing of the characteristics that make her unique even though some may not accept who she really is. Each one has a purpose. Everyone is alive for equal reasons. And everyone, loser or winner can live their life seeing the beauty in themselves and each other going through each day devoting all their actions for the greater glory of God.

That's not the exact thing I said in front of the class last wednesday. Pero ayan na yun. YEEEY tapos na akoo. nagawa ko na inuutos ni Ms. Marah! okay, whatever me.

i'm tired.

di ko pa napopost swimming pics ng i3 :))

bounce bounce

2007-03-17T01:44:00.000-07:00

time

2007-03-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

Freshman year is almost over. Only three days to go. The sentimental me is coming out to play. Flashbacks of the year are running around in my darned brain.

I feel like I'm still in seventh grade. I remember the legacy. The thrill and excitement each one felt as we were about to perform on the stage. The sweat we put into preparing fot the said event. I remember the mornings in the 7-3 classroom. Classmates came in in different moments and as each one arrives, the circle grows bigger and bigger. Almost all of us sat together and enjoyed the company. I remember the graduation practices, how Pat and Maan separated me from I-ris and Clara because we were noisy. My time frame seems to have been trapped in seventh grade that I haven't really noticed this freshman year. I was too preoccupied thinking about last year that I forgot to enjoy my freshman year. How suckish can that be?

I guess I spent the whoooole year missing last year. ARGHH SUCKISH.

Why is it that you only see the significance of something when that something has gone? I feel so regretful now, seeing that I've wasted so much time. I kept wishing that the past was back that I forgot to enjoy the present. IT SUCKS.

So what happend this year? The annoying this is, my answer to that question shows that I marked my year with sad events. I remember those who left instead of those who came. That's sad. Come to think about it, good things still did happen. I just found so many ways to make myself miserable. I wasted the year. This sucks.

Time goes by so quickly that I wasn't able to look at the details. Yes, I saw each angle of my problems. I didn't look closely enough to see that though I had problems and I cried every single day, the world still is beautiful. I was too busy with my own feelings that I forgot to stare at the miracles happening around me. I failed to see the beauty of the trees waving with the wind, leaves clinging to the branches for dear life. I failed to see how blessed I am, eating 3+ times a day. I was too caught up in my tangled thoughts that I didn't appreciate being alive. I was so busy focusing my energy on negativity and my fears that I wasn't able to let go of my anxieties and live with a smile on my face.

Time flies. It flew. It's gone. Now that I'm regretting, I can't really change anything anymore. What's done is done. 3 months till sophomore year and there's no escape from it. This moment won't return. This moment is gone forever. Nothing lasts.

I feel like I've been so stupid for wasting a whole year. I feel so annoyed at myself for failing to see the beauty of life.

Atleast I know how valuable time is now. I hope next year would be different.

"Each moment you spend failing to see the beauty of the world, others, life and yourself is a moment wasted and gone forever."

tagboard :)

2007-03-16T01:00:00.000-07:00

My tagboard's such a loser. It appears only when it wants to. E ngayon it's there. Take advantage naman ako. sorry for not replying to your tags :)

FAmi: BELOVED! thanks :)

Mara: Porket inaagaw mo sakin eraser ko ganyan ka na. HAHAHA

Ida: HAHA! ayun namaan.

She: Thanks. :) sino kaa. nacucurious ako. magpakilala ka, please? :)

moran: hi panget. :) thanks. HAHA biroo. :P

Miara: TAMMO I3 SABI SAINYO INTOXICATING E!! NAKAKAADIK DAW O!! :)) thanks! :) dapat bumili ka pa. hahaha.

Monet: pictures lang? HAHA. biroo naman. suresure. :)

Don't be discouraged to tag. magrereply naman ako e. ..someday.

NAEEXCITE NA AKO MAG APRIL 22!! siiiis! :)

Pero ayoko pang mag2nd year. harhar

put a smile on your faaaace

2007-03-10T04:39:00.000-08:00

what am I here for?

okaay, I'm thinking again.

pero honestly, what am I here for?

I must have a purpose. God sent me to this world e. But what is it?

Share my talents?
I'm not good at anything.

Help others?
As if I matter to them.

whaaat?

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"swear not by the moon the inconstant moon monthly changing in its circled orb" -shakespeare.

HAHAHA. aknewit! you sweared by the moon! :))

i still love moons. :))

moons make me think about my dayd.

fuuun.:P

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medical-dental mission tomorrow. naeexcite ako! i'm gonna wear my read panty :)). okaay, baboy.

I've been wearing my shoe necklace almost everyday. Ewan, mas magaan yung feeling pagsuot ko cya. :))

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People say you must follow your dreams.

I have so many dreams and wishes but I'm slowly losing hope. I just can't do it. I can't reach my dreams. I find myself easily giving-up to everything, letitng myself stop trying. Maybe sometimes giving up will hurt less. Kasi when you give up, you stop yourself from falling. ewan, I want to pursue my dreams but I'm too much of a scaredy cat to take the risks.

HAHAHAHA.

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Yesterday was AA's celebration of MME's feast day which is today. It was the last mass for the schoolyear and the Highschool had a community day afterwards. it was FUUUN.

i3 went to my house for our entrep (oo, kinacareer namin :))). maligalig ang mundo :))

pics in my multiply!

http://liaaang.multiply.com

Loseer. :P

2007-03-09T06:24:00.000-08:00

loser: One that fails to win

Loser is a word, commonly heard in our classrooms, uttered continuously. It's used as 'pambara' or 'panginis'. No one really thinks about it anymore. Even I use it against others. It suddendly popped into my mind one afternoon and I've been aching to write about it ever since.

What makes a person a 'loser'? People are branded as losers but I don't really get why. All I know is, some people have traits than are inept to society's standards. Is being yourself losing? Are you a loser because of a little flaw, a misspelled word or an embarassing remark? Are you a loser for commiting a mistake?

What is winning anyway? Does money and power equate to winning? Is popularity, fame and material possesions winning? Are you victorious when you have a new shirt or perfect a test? Is that winning to you?

What is winning without losing? If you haven't lost, will you ever win? Is winning served to one in a silver platter and losing on a gold plate?

What is wrong with losing? will Losers never win? Will burdens be present forever? Will one not learn from losing? If you have a blemish and are called a loser, does this mean you'll never win?

ayun na yun :) answer my questions. :)) please?

2007-03-02T22:22:00.000-08:00

I was able to watch American Idol's MArch 1 episode earlier. Kellie PIckler performed and I got this from her:
"Sometimes I think about you
Wonder if you’re out there somewhere thinkin’ ‘bout me"

anywaaay :P

yesterday was fun. mitch came over and we went to mikee's. nagshohsoot sila for their project. bumenta samin ni mitch yung ibang conversations.

conv #1:
mikee: Osige ha, in five minutes, magshohoot na tayo.
michelle: 1, 2, 3, 4..
mikee: minutes kasi, hindi seconds
michelle: hanggang sixty kasi binibilang ko e.
mikee: edi one minute lang yon!
michelle: edi limang beses magbibilang!

conv#2
mikee: sinong hindi pasmado?
sab: ako!
michelle/jaimee: alam mo ba kung anong pasmado?
sab: oo! pag basa yung kamay!
michelle/jaimee: e pasmado ka ba?
sab: mejo
sab: mikee mejo pasmado ako ah!

mwahaha, babaw namin ni mitch. sorry ah, bumenta samin e. :))

naLSS ako. "one, two I'm coming for you.. (ahhhh-jaimee) three four, better lock the door.. (aaaaahhhhh)" sabay tawa si sandra :P

:P

2007-02-25T04:03:00.000-08:00

amababoy na ng blog ko. mali-mali na yung mga nakasulat sa profile. aayusin ko na nga,, next time :P

yesterday was fuun. kaya awaanablogboutsit. :P

day started EARLY. 7 palang gising na :P hate it. wait lang wait lang,

NIGHT BEFORE
liang: ma, anong oras po tayo aalis bukas.
mom: 7:15. kung late ka, wala nang maghahatid sayo sa bahay nina camla.

edi 7 nga ako nagising diba. habang naliligo, may narinig akong door na nagclose tas yung engine ng car, nagstart. edi dali dali akong nagpunas ng twalya tas suot agad ng blouse at palda. hindi pa nakabutton yung blouse ko e tumakbo na ako pababa para pigilan yung car na paalis na. pagtingin ko sa labas, gulat ako, kumpleto pa kotse namin. tas asa taas pa pala si mommy, nagbibihis. nahuli pa sya sakin. tenks naman ma at mejo basang-basa yung bluse ko. :P anywaay.

--singit. may tumawag.

siya: hello pwede po kay jan kristoper? (laughing background)
ako: sino to?
siya: si krislin po.
ako: ay sorry wrong number.

haha, john cristopher ata. tas yung krislin? ewan ko na. haha. basta yun narinig ko. sorry na.

--back to kwento :P

I went t o camla's, we fetche d gian in Mcdo and went to UP. mejo naligawligaw pa kami. pero we got there. har :) pagtaas ko dun sa lobby nung theater, nagulat ako. naliligaw ang lovey miss castro. ang usapan kasi, si ms. castro, ms. daphne at ms. calayag imemeet yung mga pumuntang nakaprivate tas si ms. santiago tska francisco dun sa sasakay ng bus. E NALATE LAN GNAMAN SI NA MS. CASTRO. niice. uminit ulo ni ms. marah :P

soo, BASILIA NG MALOLOS. maganda. ang cute nung pagkaarte nila :) basta yun.
akala ko nung simula basilica ng malolos. harr. stupid. ang pretty nung girl, yung si mercedes. PRETTYYY! a basta yun :P

neeext. sumakay kami sa van nina maxine tas pumunta kaming RP, sa kotse kami nagbihis. basta yon :). tinatamad na ako. kaya mabilisan nalang :P

ayun maxine's group TRIED to get the info. mejo nahirapan lang sila.

mara, nessa and I watched the number 23. BLOOD ISN'T GROSS WHEN YOU SEE A HEART PUMPING AWAY DURING AN OPERATION. IT'S GORY WHEN YOU SEE IT FLOWING OUT OF A DEAD PERSON'S SLASHED WRISTS. :

if you know me, you know I HATE IT when a friends cuts herself. kaya naman mejo nagstick sa mind ko yung itsura nung girl na nakahiga sa kamang patay na may dalawang slashes sa wrsts na tas may pool of blood sa palibot non. eeek. nagflflash pa yung image sa brain ko. :

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adiik. haha :) nacrecreep out si mara dyan hanggang ngayon. fuun

..gusto ko pa magpost

kaso wala na akong masabi.

haha.

kumoquote nalang ako.

"time is just a counting system with numbers attatched to it" -the number 23. gooory blood from slashed wrists. yun lang nagstistick sa mind ko.

"all my life, it was just me and my dreams" -ice princess 4 times ko na pinanood in 2 days. adiiik.

"for beatrice- you will always be in my heart, in my mind, and in your grave" -A Series of Unfortunate Events book 5: The austere academy. inuulit ko lahat ng books para magets ko na siya. nabasa ko na yung book the 13th pero di ko nman nagets :) ulit ulit ulit. tska hinihiram ni mara yung books ko, one at a time. asa 3 the cya :)

"you only remember me when everyone else forgets about you." -guess who!

tick-tock goes the clock.

2007-02-23T01:06:00.000-08:00

Some say 13 is the difficult age. My understanding of this was pretty shallow until today. The 14 year old me finally realized why this is so. This just proves I'm delayed in my understanding of things. I discoverd something I should've thought about a year ago.

They say, the age is difficult because one does not know if she' supposed to be a child or a lady. It's pretty tough, actually. Many girls blossom into young ladies at this age. Somehow, I find myself trapped in childhood while they are frolicking in the sunshine enjoying being a teenager. What is worse is, I think I put myself into this mix-up for reasons I considered rational. I now see that they're erroneous.

My 13th year was pretty rough. Problems came out of every corner when I least expected it and honestly, they turned my brain upside-down. Life gets more and more complicated each day. During my darkest moments, I wanted to disappear and trap this world in a balikbayan box and ship them of to mars. While facing these problems, I tried to think like a kid, always optimistic and ready to face the unknown. I tried to smile through each booboo and kiss strangers, trusting them. I tried to go with everything smiling, unafraid of the future. I tried so hard to capture the innocence and optimism children posses.

I'm a trying-hard five year old trapped in a teenager's body. Frankly, I'm galawgaw. I dont act like a prim and proper teenager, so demure and presentable. I'm not the preppy kind who's so confident with her appearance. I'm not the one who'd be seen always in front of the mirror with all the beauty products. I dont act like a 'young lady' either. I say what I want to say and just try to laugh and get comfortable. That's just how I am. I think.

Somewhere along this wretched path, I tried so hard to think like a child. I tried to be optimistic and slow to anger. I tried so hard to be childlike I became childish.

Childlike is way different than childish. Childlike is having the innocence and genuine compassion. Childish is the playful precocious bolt of energy running around and being merry. I tried so hard to stop growing up and delay the twisting of my world that I became this alternate person, trying to be childlike when all I get to be is childish.

Maybe one day I could finally admit I'm growing up and that life's troubles will get worse. May one day I would be happy that I'm me instead of trying hard to be someone I'm not. Maybe one day, I'd let go of my childish ways and blossom like the others. Maybe one day I'd find myself and love me for me.

Who said maturity was easy?

busydaaay

2007-02-17T02:55:00.000-08:00

...weird, ginaganahan talaga akong magpost! :P

FAMILY DAY WAS FUUUN.
(bigla akong tinamad.)

i'll post pictures nalang :). i loooove taking pictures of cute kids.

hahaha, i love the face, aiden! :P

ang cute nito, childish, innocent play. haha

whooot! ganda ng talooon! naglalaro ng chinese garter

para syang lumilipad

5 ft yaan. cartwheeel!! mejo parent mode cya dyan, hindi performing mode. wala tuloy autograph :P. mom ko may pic. daya

yellow's cheering presentation. nanalo sila dyaan! SUGOD MGA KAPATIIID!

naaliw naman ako dun sa tree :P

pissmehn. haha

ahhhhhhh! okay, wlaa lang . first solo jumpshot

self-timer yan. haha, loser :P

ang iniiit dun kanina. sakit na ng ulo ko sa change of temperature! after the family day, pumunta kami sa house namin sa marikina. naeexcite akong tumira duuun! pero ayokong lumipat. lalo na ng bus. I LOVE MY BUSMATES! sana di ako lilipat ng bus. :( warriors! mamimiss ko kayoo :(

dumadaldal ang aking daliri

2007-02-16T04:23:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to resuscitate this blog. Support me!

__ minutes before my bus came (I won't state the time, nakakahiya. ang bilis ko kasi magayos e. haha), I rushed to my bathroom to take a bath. While undressing, I finally realized why my valentines day was terrible. joowannaknow why? as if it matters, i'll tell you anyway. But it does matter cause you can opt to press the x at the upper right hand corner of the screen. A basta, I'm gonna tell you. :P.

I realized that I wasn't wearing my favorite red panty during valentines day. I wear it when something special is about to happen. And I have two of those panties. I wore it during last week's highschool assembly. I just forgot to wear it last wednesday. malaas.

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I wore my shoe necklace earlier. the one wore during my graduation. ewan, it makes me feel peaceful inside. kasi when i wear it, i feel like he actually cares and remembers me. alam mo yung comforting feeling na may evidence na naaalala ka? haha. i think i'm being weird. a basta! ganun na yun. :). i loooove my shoe necklace!

I have a new necklace I haven't worn yet. It came from -yahknowwho- again and it's been sitting in my drawer for the past month. I'm looking for a special occasion to wear it. Ano bang mangyayaring special ENOUGH? haha, hirap na tanong e. :) nothing would be as special as meeting him in person. then again, nothing would be as unlikely too. okaaay, i don't want to further expound on this. Over all, my day was okay and I'd rather not destroy it now. :P

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During our science quiz ( two periods before lunch) my stomach was aching so much and during the subject after science (CLE), I felt so weak I went to the drinking fountain (as if ang weak e no, sobra, umeexagge :P). MARA KASI E! (it's mara's fault AGAIN) during filipino time, the most amazing substitue teacher ever (Missy:P), didn't even mind that we were chasing each other. It continued until recess and we looked like two crazy people carrying our bags to get our stuff back. haha, nagagawan kami e, kasi naman, kinuha nya yung mygel ko. ayun, kinuha ko pencilcase nya hanggang lahat ng gamit namin, bitbit na namin :)). di ako nakakain kasi wala saming umawat (IN THE END, AKO NANALO!! :P) di tuloy ako nakakain. okay lang yan, atleast,, fuun! :))

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tomorrow is Ingenium's FAmily Day. Wow nagsawa na ako, every year ba naman! But ofcouuurse, i'll join. haha,wawa naman nanay ko diba? :))

wish me luck :P

im booored. :P text me! (gm na pala.) hahaha, biro

fine, wala na akong masabi.

...huling hirit (senior legacy na pala) visit mo naman multiply ko oh.

joomissme?

2007-02-15T04:11:00.000-08:00

my blog has been desserted! sabi nya nga she (my blog's a girl) is lonely. imbentoo :P

lamay, lamay, patay na blog and multiply ko. wala nang bumibisitaaa! ..di rin kasi ako nagpopost! haha, maCPR nga! haha, whateverliang. health groupmaaaates! (max, yzza, gwen and erika) pics natin asa multiply na!

ngayon ko lang rin narealize na wala pala akong tagboard. HAHA. ayan, naglagay na. matag ka naman ohh. PLEASE? desperado! :P

WOAH! di ko parin pala nauupload yung pics nung fair! sobrang late ah :)). better late than never,, riiight? waaah, late.

UPDATE! nung isang gabi, pinahiga ko si mr. ipis. tas trinap ko sya sa kwarto nya (shower ko) tas nung chineck ko sya sa umaga,, wala na sya dun! DAYAA! talino talaga ni mr. ipis! inuutakan ako. hahaha. ..umiiral kaweirdohan ko:))

woah, 4th qtr na. ang bilis ng year na 'to. in 4 weeks, tapos na freshman year ko. in 4 months, sophomore na ako. ang bilis! parang kelan lang, grade six palang ako. whoo. tas mayamaya, third year na ako. tas prom na! tas 4th yr graduation na! tas, tas, college na! tas maggraduate na! mamatay na ako! HAHAHA. whatever e, ang far off na nung iniisip. pero hindi ngaa. ang tanda ko na! parang kaninang morning talk ni ms. daphne naisip ko na 7 yrs lang yung age difference namin. so in 7 years, nagtratrabaho narin ako? parang agwat lang namin yun with grade 1 students a. woooaaah. tanda.

i hate my third quarter grades. 4 pts binaba ng average ko. harr,, LOW.

i feel weird, kung dati lagi akong naghihirap para on time lahat ng requirements ko, ngayon, lagi akong late nangpapass pag alam kong di ko na kaya gawin (or ayoko na, or gumive up ako). HINDI AKO GANOON! pinaghihirapan ko lagi mga requirements ko!! pero ngayon hindi na. labo. ang weird. EFGEE KASI E! ..right maxine and yzza? hahaha, biro lang ef, you know i love you :P

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Yesterday was Valentines day. I suddenly hate holidays. Lagi akong minamalas e. nakakapikon.
oh well. atleast it's OVER! till next year!

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i'm bored.

--ooops! mom's home. lagot ako. hahaha. 'till here, dear blog. magintay ka nalang sa susunod nating pagkikita (which is a long time from now. :P)

HAHA.

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onga palaaa, please visit my multiply. MARAMING BAGO!..

tag ka narin. para fun. :))

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2007-01-27T01:18:00.000-08:00

EMOTIONLESS -good charlotte

Hey dad
I'm writing to you
not to tell you,
that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart

are you happy out there
in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder
if we're all right?
but we're all right
we're all right

chorus: it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart you broke your children for life
it's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know that
I'm still alive

the days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there's things I'll take,
to my grave
but I'm okay
I'm okay

chorus: it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart you broke your children for life
it's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive
yeah, I'm still alive

sometimes…
I forgive
yeah and this time
I'll admit
that I miss you,
said I miss you

Chorus: it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart you broke your children for life
it's not ok, but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know that were still alive

and sometimes I forgive
and this time I'll admit,
that I miss you, miss you
hey dad

first time i heard this song, kinanta sakin ni beloved, i cried. as usual. woah. ang tugma nya. sarap iemail. at ito, pinakikinggan ko sa iPod, paulitulit lang. IM STILL ALIVE. har.

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sad, sad day.

wala sa mood magpost :P

"and now i know how much you don't care about me. i know how tired you get of me. i know that you want to get rid of me as soon as possible. i'm sorry if i'd been such a burden, i'm sorry if i'm this extra wheel unneeded but always there. i'm sorry. i know you don't need me anymore. what's in me that's so disposable? i'm IN THE TRASH CAN now. i love you and im still here, but i wont bug you anymore."

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ganadong magpost.

2006-12-27T05:30:00.000-08:00

someone's been feeling the way i've been feeling for the past few months. honestly, based from experience, that really feels terrible.

i'm getting better. and i want to tell you why.

..cos i finally found an outlet to my feelings.

yung tanging tao na pede kong sabihan ng kung anu-ano. cos i know she'll get it and she'll not misinterpret.

tama ka nga sis, nakkagaan talaga.

so to you; YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. buong araw na kitang katext ngayon :P..
THANK YOU SO MUCH :* love youu! :*

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to the someone i was talking about; you know who you are, too. i get you. sana you'll want me to get you. kasi alammo, napakalaking pangpagaan talaga yun. swear.

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to you again(first one): i'm half way out of my prison cell,, BECAUSE OF YOUUU! ---wag na sana akong bumalik. thank you so much.
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whoo.

i guess im happier during breaks! :)

ayoko na tuloy pumasok.

then again, batong bato na ako sa bahay, PASOK TAYO!

bangaaaaaag :)

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where is liang where is liang here she is (wiggles thumb) here she is (wiggles again)

hahaha, bangag nga.

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though i know something's missing parin e.... (like you! you know who you are din. kaya nagets kita kanina e. i've got to follow my own advice lang, which is much harder to do)

and (unlike you) i know what/who that is,, wanna know?!?!

i DONT WANT YOU TO KNOW! bwahahahhaha. :) :P. i wont post it here. beh :p

i know din the way for me to FINALLY BE FREE. mahirap lang, at impossible. sooo, stop wishing. hahahah! ASA. :P

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okayyy. my fingers are freezing due to the low temperature in my mom's room. (more than) enough for now!! haha

:P:P:P:P:P. oti :P

HA!? funny. not.

2006-12-27T02:21:00.000-08:00

My dad emailed my mom. THAT made me happy.

I opened my account hoping that he emailed ME too.

I guess not.

Okay fine, he doesn't care. ARGH. shut up.

Out of frustration, I sent and email to him

"papa,

MERYY CHRISTMAS! hope you're having a good time there!

liang"

i know i'm running after him,

BUT HELLO,

i'm desperate for him to remember me.

ARGHHH

i hate this.

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sorry for the outburst.

I watched Yours, Mine and Ours (7-3,, REMEMBER?! :P.. tas,, FUNG SHUI <-sp?)

Being the biggest crybaby ever,, I CRIED.

And now I want to watch PARENT TRAP. hahahha.

it's crying time!:P

unfortunately, I can't find the VCD, (yeah, ancient)

soo,, LIMEWIRE TIME :P

I'm going crazy!!!

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MY CHRISTMAS. *bow*

Mr. Pasko DID drop by this christmas!! unfortunately, I was asleep the majority of his visit. It's not my fault he came early morning :P. During his short visit, he gave me a gift. I opened the present inside my christmas stocking (under my bed for 2 weeks, with all the dust bunnies,,, kidding) and out came MS. DISTRACTION. she made my christmas ok i guess. unfortunately, I think you've got to set appointments with Ms. D. She left right awaaay. so ok christmas day, bad christmas night.

so I've got another letter..

Dear Mr. Pasko,

Thanks for the christmas present! I hope she can come by more oftern,, and stay longer. I guess that's christmas, isn't it. Candycoating the bad stuff for everyone to smile on that single day.. Okay I'm kidding. I don't think that negatively of christmas,, yet :).

Please tell Ms. D she can visit me ANY TIME. I'll be needing her, Mr. Pasko. Hope you understand that. But I do understand tha tother people need her too. I'm willing to share.

So thank you again, Mr. P. MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

LOOOOVE, liang

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whoo, bangag:P

asan na si mr. pasko?

2006-12-24T01:42:00.001-08:00

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Dear Mr. Pasko,

Hello sir! This is Liang from a far far away land called the Philippines. Do you still remember me? You used to visit me every year. I was just wondering if you will drop by this year. I just want to remind you that I'm waiting for you! I need you now more than ever.

This year has been pretty rough for me, Mr. Pasko. I've been feeling sad lately. Why have things been so miserable nowadays? I've been waiting for christmas for a long time, Mr. Pasko. I've been waiting for the single season that I might be able to laugh whole heartedly again.

I've been a very faithful little girl, Mr. Pasko. I have always believed that you can make miracles, that you make everyone happy and that you can take away pain on your day. I hope this year, you won't prove me wrong. Knowing that you will come and visit has been a great comfort, Mr. Pasko. And I've been looking forward to your visit when I've got nothing to look forward to anymore. So please, Mr. Pasko, it will hurt me alot to know I can't trust you anymore. Especially since you're the only one who I believe will not leave me.

Mr. Pasko, I'm already begging you. I need you so much. I wish you'll help me.

Sincerely yours,
Liang

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weird. sinulatan ko yung pasko. weird weird weird. haha

ang weird ko na, ginagawa kong tao yung mga hindi tao..

meron akong, Mr. happy, Mr. topic at Mr. pasko. tas si Mr. happy, Pare ko rin yan. kaya tawag ko minsan, Pareng Happy. pero ewan. di na ata kami nagkakasundo noon e. kaya for formality's sake, Mr. na sya ulet. di na ako FC. nilalayuan na ako e.

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simbang gabi na mamaya. pinilit ako ng nanay kong mag skirt, collared shirt at high heels. HAYNAKOO. first time, first time. pagbigyan na. drinadramahan ako pag tumatanggi ako e. buti nalang wala akong makikitang assumptionista :P

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i guess today's been better than yesterday.
but still,, not good.

THIS ENDS HERE.
--wala na akong masulat e.

PAHABOL.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! i'll be sending my greetings to some exactly 12mn. be sure your fone's open!:P

ISA PANG DAGDAG,

diba ang tagal tagal ko nang kumakanta ng where are you christmas. tas yung lyrics ko,, "why have youo gone so far" gone away pala. stuppid :)) pahiya tuloy ako!

christmas messages for various people

2006-12-23T02:54:00.000-08:00

radomly ko susulat yung mga messages ko sa mga tao sa mundo. if you know na ikaw yun, edi,, GOOD FOR YOU, pag hindi, sorry ka:P. yung iba, more than one yung wish ko sa kanila, kung iba din, pare-parehas.

GAME.

ang swerte nya, may nagmamahal sa kanya katulad mo.

i believe in you, now you've got to believe in yourself.

stop hurting her. wala ka nang ginawa kundi manakit. ang you can't even recognize that.

please tell the truth. masakit kasi pag puro sinungaling ka e.

asan ka pag kailangan kita?

there's a side of you that you don't want me to show you.

akala mo lang na hindi ka ganyan.

you ARE worth it.

AYOKONG MANIWALA SAYOO!!. makakasakit ka nanaman e.

kung ayaw mo na nandito ako, sabihin mo nalang. wag mo nang iparamdam na importante ako sabay walk out.

if you want it, go get it. don't expect me to get it for you

i can't help but laugh at this nonsense.

why can't i get mad at you?!

i know i'm this worthless being to you, your pampalit when you have no choice. I GET IT, OK?!

i know i'm the nuisance. fine, lalayuan kita. dakilang EPAL naman ako diba? DIBA?!

andito lang ako lagi para sayo,, NEVER FORGET THAT.

palayain mo ako. please

alam kong user ka. sana lang maenhance mo ang iyong 'using skills' para di masyadong halata ng mga ginagamit mo. get it?!

KAILAN KA BA BABALIK, ha?!?!

kaya mo yaaan!!

i'm scared you'll leave me.

you ALREADY left. fine, fine. di pa ako nasanay?

dude, kamay mo, basa nanaman. punaspunasan mo nga. nagmamarka sa board (KILALA NYO TO. HAHAHAHA)

i miss you so much

minsan feeling ko, tae ang tingin mo sakin.

and now you're making me happy again, until when will this last?

i don't want to remember all the lies.

where are you christmas?! why can't i find you? why have you gone so far?

i wish you were here.

papasukin mo nman ako sa pinto o, ang tagal ko nang nakasilip sa bintana, umaasa na kakailanganin ako dyan sa loob.

ang sama mo sa kanya, sana makita mo na mahal ka nya at na she doesn't deserve it.

hindi kita gets

i want to know you more.

gets ko nararamdaman mo.

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okay, hanggang dyan na muna, pag may dadagdag ako, edi dadagdag ko, labo. parang puro sakit yung nakasulat no? SORRY NAMAN!:))

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ang weird ng blog ko. wala cyang laman tungkol sa 'events' :)) so fine,,

VIGIL.

monthly adoration palang, nageenjoy na ako, vigil pa kaya?! :)) ewan, nagkwento lang ako kay God, tas naiyak na ako. weird? :)) haha. di ako nakapagconfess, ewan ko kung bakit..

laboo.

okay tinatamad na ako.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!

i love you! :)

honestly speaking,,

2006-12-12T06:31:00.000-08:00

CELLPHONE INSPECTION.

Every blog I went to has a post about this topic.
So sige, time for me to write my own reactions.

a total of:
27 cellphones
4 Ipods and
2 cameras were confiscated.

Mixed emotions about it. I mean, I feel sad and guilty for those whose cellphones were confiscated. I'm not contented about the results. maraming nakalusot. kawawa naman yung nakuhanan. I pity those who did not even have the heart to surrender their phones, even if they see their peers crying. I'm proud of those who were humble enough to surrender their phones even if they were ALMOST off the hook. and i'm ANNOYED AT THE MOST LIAR OF ALL LIARS.

27 cellphones?!??! Kulang pa yun, sigurado kami dun. I mean, araw-araw may mga katext 'tong mga to. tas 27 laaang?! nope.

ang benta kanina. yung mga araw-araw nagdadala ng phone, ngayon pa piniling hindi magdala ng phone kasi nakalimutan nila. yung mga hindi nagdadala ng phone sa school, ngayon na orasan makadala. Si yzza nga, pati digicam para sa IP, nakuha. si YZZA?! ambaitbait nun e.

isa pang benta to si angel :)) kasi ganto yun. ALAM KONG dala nya Ipod nya. so ilang beses ko tiningnan yung things nya. sina gwen at jean, tiningnan na yung scratch box. tas biglang pumasok si angel, "osige na, aamin na ako. asa scratchbox yung Ipod ko". tas lapit cya sa scratch box. sabay sigaw "AY!!! ASAN NA IPOD KO!! NAWAWALA IPOD KO!!".. tas halungkat cya dunsa scratchbox. wahahahah! benta :P.

pffft, pinagagalitan na ako. 11 na daw kasi. 5 mins daw

All I want for christmas is you, dad.

2006-12-09T20:06:00.000-08:00

I watched this movie about santa claus in HBO. and it was depressing. 'cause it talked about Santa granting the children's wishes for their family to be complete. Sana santa can grant my wish. Sana my dad can come home. Sana I can finally meet him. Sana he'll never leave again. Sana andito na cya forever. Sana he'll love me back.

shit.

I miss my dad so much. buong buhay ko siyang hinanap. ayoko syang iexpect e. kasi alam kong mas masakit lang yun. pero meron paring voice sa kalooblooban ko na darating cya. parang nung graduation. I heard a story somewhere na her dad surprised her on her graduation. pinapangarap ko na ganun din sakin. na isusurprise din ako. pero cyempre, hindi naman nangyari yun. walang bisa yung paghohope ko. nakakasakit lang rin yun e. Inemail ko tatay ko nung summer. hanggang ngayon, wala pang sagot. shit. di man lang ako naaalala. birthday ko wala man lang greeting. I'm this little filipino girl he left behind anong bisa ko sa kanya?! shit.

I get so envious of the people around me. The people with actual families. They're so happy. I want a family too. a complete family. I want my dad. I want him. I need him. If only I can meet him this christmas, ASA LANG AKO. ARGHHH!!!

I'm sorry, lumabas to lahat bigla. I try to stop myself from feeling this way. pero today, because of that stupid movie. the dam broke again.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
there is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is you

as if you actually care if i want you. as if you will ever listen to me. as if you even love me.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :(

sorry talaga sa post. ito nanaman napagbubuhusan ko.

i rummaged through files and this is what I got. from my june 1, 2006 entry

"i know i am blessed with so much. i may seem to be a bit ungrateful sometimes. i am aware of this. i just cant help to long for the day you tell me that you love me. 'cos i love you so much. i know that because you are not present, i was able to gain alot of blessings and that that makes me stronger everyday. maybe its god's way of making me entrust my self to him. just because i dont have you,

i feel incomplete. foolish this may seem. i guess it's just because i am SO envious. i envy people who have the person you are supposed to me. i look at my pictures and think if i'll ever be in a picture with you. if we're ever going to smile in a picture. if we'd ever be happy together. if you'd ever even SEE me happy. and the other way around.

i keep wondering what you look like. ofcourse i've seen pictures of you before. but i don't think that you'd look the same way after thirteen years. you sent us a picture of you about 5 years ago. and i have never seen you eversince.

as i was writing this, a sudden thought came into my mind. i guess i would've tried my best to be an honor student if you were around. just the thought of going onstage with you is the greatest reward for the hard work. just having you standing beside me would make me proud of you. i want to show you off to my friends. i want to tell them how good you are. i want to share stories about how much you love me.

at home i always pretend. a moment ago, i went into my mother's room to turn the internet on. i said goodnight to her too. i was smiling and acting happy. and when i went back to the computer, tears began streaming from my eyes AGAIN. yes, im an actress. i cant help it. she musnt know.

many times in my life have i caught myself wanting to stop time. i didnt want to experience something new without you by my side. i didnt want to experience another milestone without you being happy for me. its as if i want to freeze the moment so i could wait for you. i miss you. alot.

in every step i take, i never fail to think, 'what if you were there to celebrate with me. what if you were there to share my glee? what if you were there to SEE me growing and changing? would you be proud of me?' of course i know these answers were made to be unanswered. i just cant help it. i wish you were here with me.

i love you so much. i guess what saddens me is the thought that you do't love me back. you have'nt responded to my email which was sent a few weeks ago. my christmas greeting, you didn't reply to, either. everytime i open my mailbox, i ALWAYS check to see if you wrote to me FIRST. and every time, i see my inbox without a single message from you,. not even a simple 'hello'. you will never know how much a 'hello' means to me. "

naiiyak na naman ako. ayaw ko na. sorry tlga sa post

decisions decisions

2006-12-08T19:59:00.000-08:00

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When I woke up, I just decided. okay. ayoko na. wala na akong pakialam sa kung anong pinagagawa at kung anong pinagsasabi mo sakin. Anlabo e. nakakasakit din. so sige. I love you so much and I care about you so much pero wala na akong expectation sayo. Ikaw na bahala. I'll try not to mind. Para atleast, pag lumabo ka na ulet, hindi na sasakit. Pero ibig sabihin din nito, pag may sasabihin ka saking maganda, hindi ko na lubusang paniniwalaan. sorry pero kailangan ko naring protektahan sarili ko. I care too much and I want to lessen it. kahit mahirap. so from now on,, I'm here for you when you need me and when you don't, Im still here. The only difference is that I don't expect you to need me and I won't be bothered if I'm wothless to you. Malabo ka rin e. kaya bahala na. I still love you and I'm always here. yun nalang yun. PERIOD.

actions speak louder than words. so ngayon sinasabi ko to. pero I know that hindi pa cya totoo. I'm still trying. bahala na. KAYA KO TO :P. AKO PA! --asa--
haha, gets mo? :)) ohwell :P

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I also decided to be happy. ewan ko kung anong use noon. pero ocge, game ako magtry. Mahirap lang naman talaga sumaya pag sadjang may mga nangyayaring hindi nakakatuwa e. so, ewan ko na, i dont want to think about those stuff anymore. Bahala na muna.

OBVIOUS BANG IM TRYING TO BE CAREFREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!?
as if. whoo!

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haha. pagbigyan nyo na ako. nahyhyper e :P

who-me?

2006-12-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

4-day weekend. first day palang, napapanis na ako sa bahay.

Telebabad time with my sis is sooo FUN! :)

NEW PICTURES IN MY MULTIPLY. PLEASE VISIT :)

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for who-me

Sorry I've been so selfcentered
I'm sorry for bringing you grief
I'm sorry for making you miss my presence
I'm sorry for being so distant, unwelcoming, cold.
I'm sorry for being so stupid,
letting go of a person worth cherishing.
letting go of the listener, consoler and true friend

We both know things will never be the same again. Kaya ngayon palang,, goodbye.

Goodbye not in the sense na wala nang pansinan. Goodbye lang sa old times, sa luma, sa nakasanayan at hinahanap hanap. Goodbye doesn't mean I don't love you. 'cos I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I'm still here for you. Goodbye is about letting go of the past and looking to the future. Creating a relationship a 100x better than the past. I'm looking forward to all the future laughtrips, my friend. Its time to build a friendship surely overtaking the one before. A friendship that will never break for a loooong loooong time :)

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THE END.

bow :P

tagboard troubles

2006-12-06T01:14:00.000-08:00

Di gumagana tagboard ko. Yan tuloy, hindi ako nakakapagreply sa inyo. Kaya sige, ngayon na ako magrereply :p.

OCTOBER: --oo, october pa:))

LYKA
TAG! TAG! TAG! si lyka toh. bwahahah! wala lang. ako nga si lyka. aun nga. bwaha! labooo! bwaha! ako nga! bwaha
---oi, lyka. bwahaha. ikaw nga si lyka! bwahaha. --sarcasm:)--

DANICA
hiiiiiiii. hallo. love your brown-blue blog. :)
---oi! haha, i lovED it din :) thanks for visiting

AKO TO, LABO :)
oo ako nga! hahaha! sasabihin ko sayo sa ym kng cno ako, nanggugulo lang ako.
---okay. labo. nakalimutan na kita:) october pa to e:))

REANNE
hoy! palanca ko! anong petsa na?!?!?
---hehe, anak, di pa pinanganganak yung palanca mo. sorry na:)

LYKA
wala ka ng links?aww.
---dati, wala. ngayon, meron na. haha. labo :P. see your name!? ayun o!! imaginin mong pinopoint ko. :)) labo.

MIARA
liaaang.haha.saya daw ng field trip ng ingenium.ay.
---di na ako sumasama sa fieldtrip ngayon e. haha. dati oo. syempre alam mo, joro kasi e :)

ANINA
hi napadaan lang. cute ng layout mo :D
---ui, thanks for passing by (inenglish?!) thank you, thank you

CLARA
nyahaha! iniisip ko kung sino yung crush ko na may birthday nung araw na yun. haha! iniisip ko kung sino sakanila. haha! sorry na. nyaak!
---ung gwapo. haha. na ...bata. hahaha! masyado bang marami na di mo na maalala?? HAHAHA. ikaw pa.

IDA
psst. :biggrin:
---ngiti ka lang :)

CHRISTINE
liaaaaaaaang. i miss you! kilala pa kayo ako? /:) hmmm. missing those trumpets days with you!
---ofcourse I remember you! oonga, i miss SDTC too!

WHO-ME
liang..isa ba tlga ko sa mga taong binatray ka..na ung pag-comfort ko sayo..akala mo lies? isa ba ko sa mga taong nagpafeel sayo nang ganun? :(
---nope, promise. may sasabihin ako sayo. ...through my blog. kaya abang abangan mo :)

NOVEMBER:

AIEN
i miss you
---I MISS YOU TOO! :*

CELINA
LIANG!!=) happy happy b-day!!
happy b-day!
happy birthday!!
happy b-day liang!
---dami ah :)) hahaha!! :) thankyoooooou

DENISE
Belated Happy Birthday ulit! Haha. THanks sa *yum* cake! Haha.
---haha, thank you and you're welcome :)

MITCH
Woah, kasama ko sa meaningful text message? Haha, labo. :)
---oonaman. 12 pa e.

ARRA
MHL, i need a hug. whoo. and some painkillers.
MHL, expert ka sa pretend happiness? ano ko?:))
---huhug kita :. hindi hindi, mas magaling ka :))

DANICA
hpping
---hpp ka lang :P harry potter prens. HAHAHA! corny :) :P labo.

AYNA
liang. :D
bakit di ko mbasa ung posts mo? kalahati lang ung kita e..
---talagaaa? di ko lam e. aayusin ko :)

hehe,, MY TAGBOARD IS NOW OPEN!!! magtag kayo.

new layout

2006-12-05T02:36:00.000-08:00

sooo, new layout? joolike it? :). I went with black and white 'cos it reminds me of pandas:)) i loooove pandas. Aside from being cute, they symbolize china AAAAND my first stuff toy was a panda which was given to me by my dearly beloved dad [himala no. onti lang yan, kaya CHERISHED!]

random thoughts,, again.

....i feel like a permanent substiture. Oxymoronic, isn't it? (..haha, imbento,, oxymoronic:P). All my life I've been a substitute. I was nominated for JSCAA posistions twice when I was in gradeschool because one of the other nominees backed out. substitute, substitute. I'm usually the replacement when something is missing. What they don't notice is that even thought that 'something' is already present, I'm still there. I am permanently standing here even when I am only a substitute to the person you want to be here. joogetme? haha, bahala ka:P

....CLOUDS. Recently, I've been fascinated by the clouds. Kasi nga diba, pag asa bus kami, naabutan na namin yung sunset. Ang ganda nung pagkamix ng colors. grey & white clouds,, tas may reds, yellows and oranges dahil sa sun.

"You're fascinated by the clouds because everyday, its different. No cloud formation can be seen twice" -albertine carpio, busmate

Oonga no. That just emphasizes the fact that life changes. Life is meant to change. Life cannot and will not stay the same. 'Cos sameness is not beautiful. You get tired of it when you do it over and over again. The clouds are so pretty 'cos they have variety. There's always something new, something interesting. The only time I don't like looking at the clouds is when it is stormy [no lightning ha, i like looking at lightning too :)]. Like life, that only symbolizes that nothing can remain beautiful. Everything has to go through hard times. But like the clouds, darkness doesn't last forever. It all clears up and you'll see the sky, bright and new, with all the colors blending with eachother, looking more beautiful thank you've every seen it before.

....Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gano kaimportante ang tiwala sa sarili. without it, you can achieve nothing.

....i suck when it comes to writing in filipino (talambuhay). akala ko, totoong word yung 'yung'. haha. dami tuloy na corrections :p

....Science and Math test tomorrow. Magaaral pa ako sa science. whoo, GO LIANG :P.

.....AP test was confusing. liang kasi e. tangi. ohwell. sana matino grade ko.

THAT'S ALL THERE IS, THERE ISN'T ANYMORE [madeliene (sp?) :))]

btw, di senti post ko, ano, amazing ba?

sorry sa typos at wrong grammar.. pati sa previous posts :P.

weather weather

2006-11-30T18:30:00.001-08:00

random stuffs.

....ang weird ni Reming, di ko na cya magets. ano ba talaga?? babagyo o ano!? weird.

....ang funny, kasi kahapon nanonood kami ni mommy ng tv sa sofa. sa kabilang upuan andun yung aunt ko, blah. tas bigla akong binulungan ni mommy.

MOM: liang, natatae ako.
LIANG: ma, kinailangan mo pang sabihin sakin yun!
MOM: *giggles* secret lang natin ah
LIANG: *giggles din* ocge, cge :)

haha, natutuwa ako sa nanay ko :)). ang cute cute nya diba?:))

....I can really imagine myself without a family when my mom goes andbefore I get married. Just by imagining it, tears fall from my eyes. I believe in support systems in dpending on one another and in knowing that someone will always help you. When I grow up, I'll have none of the above. I won't have family. I don't have close cousins. I don't have siblings. Heck, pano na ako?:(
paranoia is taking over again.

....I feel like i already lost my zest for life. My whole outlook has changed drastically. Before, I woke up to a new day, thinking that life will get better. I looked forward to my encounters for the day, wanting to learn something new. Now it's very different. Instead of being excited, I tend to dread new days. I don't think life can get better anymore. I just think things gte worse and worse. I'm not the enthusiastic girl who is just enjoying herself anymore. I'm the paranoid freak not wanting to leave the comfort of her own bed, under her own blanket. I don't want to be like this anymore. I miss me so much. Please help me find myself? oh, i know where i am. I'm in the prison, remember? and I can't get out. tas the person I'm being right now is so different from the person inside the prison. What you don't know is that you hold pieces of the key to the prison cell. And you have control over my freedom.

remember this?
(private blog post)

i feel like a prisoner trapped in my own cell,

the other day, the jailguard told me that my case had been dissolved.
and i'm allowed to leave the prison.
i felt so happy, to finally get out of the prison.

then suddenly, all i wanted to do was to run back to the precinct
hide in my prison cell.
and never come out again.

people TRIED to bail me out.
but nooo. ~~i didn't allow them~~.

the more visitors i had,
the more convinced i was that i belonged in my prison.

and ofcourse, they gave up.
who wouldn't?

and i was left alone,
in the corner of my cell,
crying my eyes out.
this is where i belong, isn't it?
isn't this what i want?
and i lie there, until i fall asleep.

and in my sleep, i dream
i dream that tomorrow,
someone would try to bail me out again.
and that i finally would agree.
that one day, i can get out of that place.
that one day, i would be free.
and NEVER come back.

i wake up suddenly,
twist and turn,
and not get to sleep again.
in times like this, i think.

what if that tomorrow will not come?
what if no one will bail me out again?
it is tiring to try something that seems so impossible.
will i ever get out?
could i grind the grills separating me from freedom,
by myself?

am i destined to be trapped forever?
or will i find my way out, someday, somehow?
will that day be soon?
will i last 'till then?
or will i hurt myself with these stupid thoughts
that i have been wanting to let go of for the last century
but still am not able to?

will i be able to break the chains that bind me
before i get squished to the point that
i can no longer take it?
will i be able to breathe freely,
calmly?
will there be a day when i actually feel good about myself?
or will my life be full of regrets?
will i find myself?
or will the many things cluttering my mind blind me from believing
that this is me.
that i am this.
that i am me.

but is this me?
am i this? am i me?

will my heart ever be contented?
or will it be left hanging,
grasping for air.
will a smile be real?
or will it be plastered on my face,
fooling everyone?

will i ever be authentic? and real?
or am i a plaything juggling my own feelings?

oh how i wish that one day.
i'll be free.
free to be who i want me to be.
free to be me

....im super bored. tara, tara, LABAS TAYOOO!

....the ennnd:)

birthday blues, greens, reds and yellows. weh corny :)

2006-11-10T05:11:00.000-08:00

pesteng buhay to. My birthday eve and day was chosen by the starts. It was the days the dam broke, the mountains eroded, the balloons burst and the cup overflowed. Those were the days when I just could'nt push my depression to the side any longer. I SIMPLY EXPLODED. all the hurt that i have been feeling was collected and stored for a long time. Nov. 7 and 8 were the days when everything bad came back to me and wala, sadness took over. The night before my birthday was terrible. I cried in school [though no one noticed] and I cried all night. Nov. 8 was better but those feelings were coming back and forth like waves upon the sand. Terrible, terrible.

ohwell.

MY BIRTHDAY *bow*
As I said, depressing night. but more or less, happy birthday :)
Umaga
I woke up and heard my mom come out of her room. I went inside and saw MY GIFTS, kahon & sims2pets(sorry addict). They TRIED to wrap it up to SURPRISE me, but obviously, IT DIDN'T WORK :)) HAHAHA!!
Recess Time
Yzza called me over and with a gloomy face said "Liang, may kkwento ako sayo, libot tayo" So ofcourse, I walked with her. She was talking and talking. After a while, we went back to the HS building. While in the covered walk, I saw I-ris holding 2 balloons. While going up the stairs, someone told me, "Liang, may papel ikaw sa sahig". I saw this piece of paper attached to a longer piece of paper that lead into our classroom. I also saw I-ris and Catan running frantically inside while shouting "Andyan na cya, andyan na cya!". When I turned into the classroom, my friends shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" they had cake(which I saw Carissa holding in the morning), 2 ballons(which I saw Max bringing to school) and an illustration board (which was brought to school on Nov. 7 but I never noticed).
I WAS ABSOULUTELY TOUCHED. I didn't expect it at all!! (even though I saw the cake and balloons in the morning!) Thank you so much for making my birthday so memorable. Thank you for planning your sort of surprising surprise! thank you for the effort you put into planning it, for the cake, for the balloons, FOR EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :) personal salamat's

FOR THE MEANINGFUL TEXT MESSAGES
CLARA
KIESHA
MIKEE
MITCH
VANESSA
JEAN
MAECA
MARIAN P.
PAT H.
KAPWET
JULIA
TRICHIE

FOR THE BIRTHDAY GREETINGS IN SCHOOL
andami nyo. haha, di ko maenumirate. PERO SOBRANG THANK YOU sa pagalala, they meant alot to me. :) Salamat talaga :)

FOR THOSE WHO WROTE IN MY ILLUSTRATION BOARD
BELOVEDfami
PAULINE
MAXIMERSmaxine
NIKKA
IANA
ATE BLESSblevin
SISmara
KIESHA
CAMLA
YZZA
ARIEL
EFGEE
MAECA
KATHLYN
IDA
JOY
AYNA
ATE JUSbaby
JEAN
GEN
ANGEL
ALYANNA
LIZETTE
NESSA
CARISSA
SAM
CLARA
AIEN
MIA
REISHA
ERIKA S.
RIA TINIO
CENI
PAT H. (SA BALLOON KONG HAPPY BIR)

FOR THE SURPRISE
MAXINE
YZZA
CARISSA
ALEX
CLARA
IANA
JOY
IDA
I-RIS
LIZ
SAM
CATAN

FOR THE GIFTS
YZZA (MYGEL BALLPEN&REFIL *first time kong malaman na may refill na pala)
ARIEL (Chocolate!)
ANGEL (Chocolate!)
ALYANNA (Blowpop)
CAMLA (BELVITA)
BEAR (Blowpop)

THANKYOU. You made my birthday WONDERFUL. kung wala kayo, ano na ako? :) I love you so muuch :)

I'm fourteen! Taena ang tanda :

i feel terrible.

2006-10-24T23:04:00.000-07:00

when all else fails,, write.

2006-10-20T19:28:00.000-07:00

Life is full of lies.
The wind is tricking you to follow him.
The trees look sturdy but termites llive in them.
The water, blue with pretty fishes hold many predators wanting to have a bite of you.

You can't trust anything.
The wind always changes direction.
Leaves always changes color and falls down
Water flows.

But that's how life is.
That's how the world rotates.
That's how we live.
Why cant I seem to accept it?

I can say that i easily believe.
I believe that trees are sturdy
That life is fun
That everything is real.

I am very gullible.
Thinking everything's real when its not.
Thinking everyone's honest when they're lying
Thinking life's not changing when its spinning fast.

I hold on to the moment so much
and i can't let go
I think that things will last forever
though they're already gone, lost in space.

I can't contol myself from missing them.
I can't pretend i'm not longing for them.
I can't help dreaming they are still here.
I can't help wishing that they're not lies.

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as you can see, nilulungkot nanaman ako.

EVERYTHING YOU SAID ARE LIES. EVERYTHING I FOUND COMFORT IN ARE LIES. EVERYTHING! :'(

I don't want to believe anything anymore
It's so easy to be fooled, to be played with
You can't be sure of anything.
All of those can change in an instant.

nothing lasts anymore.
Every kind deed can easily be replaced by an evil one.
Every smile can instantly become a frown.
Every promise can turn to a lie.

I don't like this world anymore.
You can't count on anything, anybody.
All you can do is WISH
wish that this time, things are real.

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i feel so betrayed.

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i want to share my english essay because i worked SO HARD on it :)

Pretend Happiness

Sometimes you just have to accept that life is full of problems and difficulties. Because of this, there are some days when you feel so low and downhearted. The next day, your sadness persists. You can mope around and sulk all you want at home. But in school, you can’t actually show you grief, can you? Who wants to look like a sad case in front of their friends and teachers? They’ll think that you’re this drama queen looking for a way to be noticed. You don’t want that, do you? Besides, you don’t want them to worry about you, do you? You might just burden them will all your petty thoughts. So what do you do in school? Escape from your friends? Hide in the Comfort Room? I don’t think so. I’ve got some tips and tricks about pretending to be happy which will surely answer your queries.
Nobody can accuse you of being gloomy when you’re bubbly and talkative. You have to force yourself to talk, smile and laugh for them to be fooled. You can also initiate a conversation and laugh at all the jokes even when your mind is on another planet. This tip is more important to those who are naturally talkative. People easily spot your misery when you are suddenly quiet. Be sure to continue blabbering even if you already want to cry.
Hyperactivity and weirdness are also perceived as happiness. Acting silly diverts everyone’s attention. They would think that you’re very pleased with your day. This tip doesn’t only fool your friends and the people around you. This can also be used on yourself. A short time after being peculiar, you will see that you have forgotten your troubles. This, of course, is a temporary thing. It lasts long enough to serve as a detour in any conversation.
Sometimes, daydreaming is uncontrollable especially in the classroom. This is a bad thing. Teachers can easily spot you glum when they see that you’re not engrossed in the lesson. Also, thinking leads to worrying. Worrying leads to being more depressed and being depressed leads to crying. Who would want to be seen crying in the middle of class? To stop all of these from happening, you simply have to raise your hand and recite. This trick works well on teachers and fellow classmates. They surely won’t suspect a thing.
Crying is the easiest way to show your sorrow. Therefore, it’s also the most important thing to prevent when you’re pretending to be happy. When you know that you’re about to cry, you must crack a joke to hold the tears. Redirect your mind to think of another person’s stories or problems. If you really can’t stop your tears from falling anymore, try to tilt your head upwards or find a valid excuse to get out of the scene.
If you really, really, really need a way to express your feelings, the easiest and most hidden way is to write. In writing, you can really let go of those harmful toxins inside of you. Doodling is also effective. It is a useful way to understand your feelings and put them into paper. You can use figures of speech to further exemplify your point. The only downfall to this is if somebody accidentally on purpose reads it. So be sure to guide all your written works or some people will actually discover your darkest secrets.
As you can see, pretending to be happy is pretty hard. You have to train yourself to control your emotions. But as they say, practice makes perfect. One day you can be a successful actress masking your feelings so no one will notice. I would warn you to use your new knowledge in moderation. Too much of this can be harmful for your mental and emotional health. You must use this only when extreme situations call for drastic measures. This information can be very useful. You might suddenly come to a day when you need to pretend to be happy.

------------------------------take it from me, im the expert. haha!!

there are new pics in my MULTIPLY!! please comment :) http://liaaang.multpily.com

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i FINALLY read the 13th book in Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events. I read 337 pages in 3 hours, nonstop :)). ganon ako kaadicted sa pagbabasa :)) Unfortunately, hindi ko parin gets. I read the 12th book last year so i forgot it already. I have to read everything from the very beginning again. haha. g'luck to me. :)

spoke too soon

2006-10-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

two posts ago, i said that i was becoming happier each day. i guess i spoke too soon. things are the opposite for me at the moment.

life's becoming harder and harder. you dont know how to differentiate fact from fiction, truth from lies. It's as if there's one big pit which i've fallen into. There are hands on the side saying theire going to catch me. and when i hold on to them they let go. Some hands ask for money first, then let go. I'm falling so fast. Air resistance is not even helping me! It has its own share of lies. There's just this 20 feet gap between me and the end of the pit. Pretty soon, i know i'll be hitting rock bottom. and believe me, i am NOT excited.

There are so many fake things i've believed.

recollection was fun, and touching. i cried so many times. i finally told friend (remember friend from my private blog?) how i feel. oh well. i hope things will work out well.
the recollection also is CONFUSING. anyway

our cheerdancers have been practicing in filinvest for the past weeks. i enjoy watching them. I like dancing but i just am not good at it.

I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE. i just dont know who. :

liang, gumising ka na.

2006-10-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

--sinabi sakin yan ng isa sa mga pinakamatalik kong kaibigan,, na tawagin na muna nating, unan (dibaa, sabi moo, sa letter mo. ayaw mo? kulangot nalang :)) djoke lang :)) anyway, si unaaan :))

tae hindi ako makapagsulat ng matino,
:)) benta yung pangalaaan :))

anyway, kahapon, kachat ko cya. tas may sinabi sakin tas nagbigay ako ng ~~advice~~ tas biglang sbe ko --ito nanaman ako, akala ko madali e no. haha-- tas tska nya sinabi yun -liang, gmising ka na na.-- eversince then, hindi na napatigil utak ko sa kakaisip.

ano kaya ibig nya sabihin by gumising? gumising from where?

natatakot tuloy ako. sabi nea pa naman pag binago ko naa.

ARGHH its so scarrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy!!

ano kaya yun? whaaat? baka anoo, or or ANO! SHUCKS! wag sana anooo. :(

im paranoid.

unan, (benta sakin ung name :))) please sabihin mo na. natatakot ako ng sobra. kutob ko tuloy ano. :::::... pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaae. thankyou :)) labo.

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happier by the day.

2006-10-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

hindi na ako masyadong mood swings. hindi na ako masyadong sensitive. kumbaga,, dati 80%,, ngayon 60% nalang. haha! :) yeeey! thank you lord:)

--masyado kayong nambabawi ng ngiti.--- (igets nyo nalang yan.) :

hmm, wala akong masabi. ang corny ko na. gusto ko ulet magprivate blog,, pero ayaw ko ren. labo. igets nyo nalang rin yan :)).

tae to. bwisit

hello, blogger

2006-10-01T07:07:00.000-07:00

balik blogger ako. i've decided to dessert my ~~PRIVATE BLOG~~. reasons are stated in my xanga. :))

4 day weekend, di nalang ginawang 5. tssk. bwisit. :)) i've been stuck home., haha, yun lang yung kwento ko. :)

BADN SCREENING WAS FUN. met up with mia and mara and nichola and maxine. i enjoyed it. specially our pictorial afterwards :)

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i've known this song all my life.. pero ngayon ko lang nakita ng revelance nito.

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

this song is dedicated to my boyfriend since birth --camla?:)) benta--
it is my dream to see you.
it seems impossible, you're so far awaaay.
pero like the song says, i find comfort in the fact that we're underneath the same sky.
and maybe, just maybe, you might be wishing that we'll see one another
and our dreams will come true.
that is,, IF YOU ACTUALLY CARE. ha, ha, ha, funny.
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new layout, natipuhan ko, blue and brown.
wala pa ung profile, archives, links, blah. di ko pa nagagawa. i'll make sure ONTI/WALANG popups :)
may pasok bukaaaaaaaaaas :

postpostpsot

2006-09-20T05:26:00.000-07:00

the REAL entry :)

YES MAY XANGA NA AKO! woohooo!. private blog ko yun :)) same password. www.xanga.com/nonstop_dreamer

---nahalata ko,, parang every month dumadami ung posts ko dun na kaemotan :)). ano to? palungkot ako ng palungkot every month?!?! :

today's okay :) rhyming na hindi :))

ANG SAYA SA SERVICE KAHAPON!

kce,, ganto yun. :). sobrang late dumating ng service,, desserted na yung school. pagdaan namin ng sumulong highway,, sobrang traffic! nagkantahan kamiii! ang aga pa naman dumilim kahapon (okay anlabo nun ah). tas as in sigawan paarang walang bukas :)). steeg tlga! yung buong bus, labo. ayun. :)) -tae ang weird ko magkwento ngayon :))-

ANG LAKAS NG TOPAK NG I-3

:)). benta kayaa! pumatok ang logic at puzzle kanina! lalang, funny.

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wla pa akong class encounter post. sorry na :))

:)

2006-08-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

160th post. natutuwa ako. magaanniversary na blog ko. SEPTEMBER NA. woohoo.

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pero sa totoo lang, hindi ako masaya. smilescanseemreal nga dba.

umiyak ako ng maraming beses ngayong araw. hindi nyo lang nahalata.

wala namang nakakakita e :)

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asa priv. blog ko. bisitahin nyo nalang. pero wag kayong umasang malalaman nyo ang dahilan. wala akong balak. :). its between me AND ME nalang. sorry naman :D

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ok ang pampam ng post :) pabayaan nyo na :)

blah

2006-08-21T05:33:00.000-07:00

i woke up to the sound of my mom rushing me to take a bath and get dressed. gandang alarm clock. we went to marikina to checkout the construction of our house. nabibighani ako sa aking nakita. ang WOAH. labo :)). gusto kong magmason. as in nung andun ako,, nagbuild ako ng pader. HAHA! sorry naman, hilig talaga.
... at natisod ako, kaya naman mag sugat ako sa toe.

1 o'clock, dumating si sheen, lyka at mikee. tas ayun, nanood kaming guess who. tas nagpakavain, tas nagorder ng mcdo. tas 8:40 na, kakaalis lang nila.

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRUX NI CLARA. ::)) benta :))

... may bago akong natutunan ngayong araw, ang ADDICT NI MIKEE SA BALLPEN. nakita nea mygel ko tas maiyak -iyak cya, gusto nyang bgay ko sknea. tas lnabas ko ung mga ballpen kong asa mga llgyan lang, mga 10 yun, binigyan ko cya nung isa. ngyon ngyon lang nalaman ko, knuha niya pala ung blue kong mygel. TAMA YAN MIKEE.

so basically masaya ang araw ko. kaso lang andami kong pang gagawin. taeng AP, SCIENCE at AK. sorry naman, tamad :P.

ayokong bumalik sa marikina. TSSS. buti pa dito sa flinvest, pedeng gumala.. ngayon ko lang nalaman, gala pala ako. :))

ALLCOVEREDUP ang password DATI ng private blog ko. at naisipan ko itong gamitin dito for some reason hindi ko alam. so iba narin password ng private blog ko. ask me ask me.

as if nothing happened, as if we weren't apart for a quarter, as if we are still part of 7-3. i love you guys

2006-08-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

today was,, WONDERFUL.

7-3 had planned this reunion for months! we just missed each other too much. up till now, i consider that section the best EVER. we were really bonded and close. nothing can beat our 20 people gimmicks.

our first plan was like this. we were supposed to go to eastwood, eat in mcdo and watch movie. but, due to our in mnumber and noise, we decided against it. it was held here in my house (as usual, marami daw kasing pagkain. niice :D)

people started coming at 12:30. first clara, then sheen, then ida/camla, and so on. [nakalimutan ko na]. we talked up in my room and chatted. we messed with sheen's bakla picture. [see this in lyka's blog: www.makelykasmile.blogspot.com and reisha's blog www.supergirl---.blogspot.com tinatamad akong ilink :D].

people started to come and we watch yours, mine and ours. I LOOOVED the movie. so cute :D. after that, we accidentally came upon fengshui. we were downstairs and screming like we were crazy. sheen videotaped us. it going to be uploaded in youtube and my mhultiply. i'll update you on that.

---ofcourse, we ate.

night came and they one by one started to leave. sad sad sad. the day officially ended at 10:00. whoo, sad sad sad

i reaaaaally love 7-3. it was the BEST section ever. i remember in the start of the school year when i was still in denial of being a I-3er. i remember feeling that things between us will never be the way they were last year. i remember missing the company of my 7-3 friends most especially MIA PANG. but earlier,, it felt like everything was back to the way it used to. it felt as if nothing came between us,, even the resectioning of the batch. it felt like we were back in grade 7, laughing our butts of and enjoying eachother's company.

i truly love this day. and i REALLY love 7-3. i missyou guys, and i love you all.

btw, i'm ALREADY uploading pics in my multiply, for once, ginanahan ako.

SEVEN-THREE FOREVEEEEEER :D
--kahit napapamahal narin ako sa I-3, 7-3 is simply THE BEST.

AYT! tan tantan tan tan!

2006-08-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

okay. haha!

i 'fixed' my profile. it is now LOOOOONG.

checkout lyka's blog. www.makelykasmile.com i made the header. :D.

i've gotto make 4 more blogs. ida's clara's angel's and cheska's. g'luck to me.

i plan to put my graphics in my multiply. tomorrow. WALA NAMAN AKONG GAGAWIN E! HINDI KASI AKO PNYGAN. NEXT YEAR DAW. TSS!!!

anyway, IM VERY EXCITED FOR SATURDAY! seventhree,, imissyouall! :D dvd's a, dala kayo. :P. pati food. :D

nonsense week. hindi seryosohan, but fun. [except for the symposium. HAHA]. anyway.

english and ap scores were given out. thank god the english score was not TOO bad. t'was ok. better than expected but less than my standards. nabitin e, 89. 90 na sana diba. tas ap pa, 94. tae. ONE POINT PARE! anyway. this day was full of 'bitins'

nagaway kami ni mommy kanina, actually... smama loob ko sakanya. plano ko nga sana hindi sya pansinin hnggang bkas e. unfortunately, pag dalawa lang kayo sa pamilya mo at aalog alog kayo sa bahay at awala kang magkakausap,,,,, mapapakwento ka ren sa nanay mo. DUH. haha!

pero furness, nakinig at natuto ako sa symposium[sp?]

g2g. naiinis nanaman si ma. HAHAHAHA!

vvye

new stuffs

2006-08-16T04:03:00.000-07:00

i've added some stuff to my blog to give it more personality. i now have an uber pic picture in the my sites part and my dear friend's pictures go into the links part. of course, the photo-editing is a bit -nakakatamad-. so if you want your pic there too, send it to me. the dimensions are 80x100 pixels.

i'm pretty tired of putting my private blog's url after every post. now,, you can go to it by pressing the liang thing at the end.

blah, taglish na.

my grades this quarter have been,, uhh, ok?
UT's and MQT's were horrible. I got an 82 and 83 in Filipino and science. im glad i brought those grades up. syempre, hindi ako satisfied sa 82 at 93 diba. :)).

sa totoo lang, im so NOT happy about filipino. yun lagi ang pampababa ng grades ko e. parang last year, ayos na yung card ko e. lahat ng grades, line of 9 na, tas biglang umeksena ang flipino at hele. bwisit.

unang bigay sa akin ng test paper kanina, mangiyak ngiyak ako oh!! 48/80!?!? TAEEE 75!!!! tas biglang sabi, /75 cya,, tas sabay sabi, +3. narelieve ako, atleast, line of eight. pero syempre, hindi ako contented. so yun, check check. pagkabilang ko ng items,, MALI PALA PAGKABILANG NI MISS! sobra,, rejoice ako o!! hindi pala 48! 56! layo din diba. tas +3 pa,, 59! ohyess! abot ako sa 87. sympre mediocre pren un pra sakin, pero almmo yun, atleast nakabawi,, from 82>87. pede na. tska sanay na ako sa ganyang filipino score. filipino e. haha! labo :d

sumunod na ang science. ANG TAE NG TEST NA YUN!!! 53/60 ako. 93. ok na sakin e. tas pagtingin ko sa paper ko, nakita ko ang malaking question mark. SHIT NAMAN E! tama bang NAKALIMUTAN kong sagutan ung isang part worth FIVE POINTS! parang, PRE! baka last time ko na tong magka98 sa science, tas nakalimutan ko pa!! anubaa!! nakakainiiis!! 98 din yuun!! SAYAAANG! 2 mistakes lang sana!! naging 7! bwisiiit!

math.. careless!! pero ok lang. 94. sayang no, 1 point nalang e. hindi ako recognition. pero anyway,, ok na yan. CARELESSNESS. shiiiiit

CLE... WHOO!! nagiisang matino-tinong score. :)) 95!! parang nakakamangha. nakakapanibago kasi e, last year, puro 69 ang QT ko kay sir. atleast ngyn, 95 na :D/

computer quiz. BAGSAAAAAAAAAAAAK!!! homay homay

THE WORST IS YET TO COME.
engliiiiiiiiiiiiiiish!! hala hala hala!!!!! parang umookay pa sakin ngyn grades ko e. pagdating ng english. WALA NAAA!

i do not understaaand! something is really -something's not right- really wrong!!! and ive got to put things back where they belooong!

2006-08-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

mejo mahaba ung title nito. sharpay na sharpay e no. hayaan nyo na.

tae tests. mas mahirap ang health kesa CLE. at mas mahirp ang english kesa sci.

di pa ako nagaaral,, 7:36 na

magkwekwento sana ako. hindi ko matuloy, may patak ng luha na nahulog galing sa mata ko.

lilipat na ako sa private blog. sorry naman.

www.smilescanseemreal.blogspot.com

Bringing the Dolls

2006-08-09T04:02:00.000-07:00

by merlie m. alunan

two dolls in rags and tatters
one missing an arm and a leg
the other blind in one eye
i grabbed them from her arms.
"no" i sad. "they cannot come"

each tight luggage i had packed
only for the barest need
no room for sentiment or memory
to clutter with loose ends
my stern resolve. I reasoned,
even a child mas learn
she cannot take
what must be left behind

and so the boat turned seaward
the smart winds blowing dry
the stealthy tears i could not wipe
then i saw rags tatters and all
beneath the neat trim packs
are the dolls i ruled to leave behind

her silence should have warned me
she new her burdens
as i knew mine.
her clean white years unlived
and paid my price.
she battened on a truth
she knew i too must own
when whats at stake is
loyalty or love
hers are the true rights
her own faiths she must keep
not i

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mali mali siguro ang stanza-ing ko nyan (form) etc. sorry naman.

paulit ulit ko yang binasa. yan tuloy, namemorize ko. bakit ganun, ang mga hindi kailangan imemorize, namememorize. ang kailangan mamemorize, hindi mamemorize. labo. gets? :))

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i LOOOVE the poem. haha. pero pamatay ang written expression. tae. crammer pa naman ako. oh well. pero wala akong masabi. nagenjoy akong isulat yun :D

blah

2006-08-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

today was. TODAY. labo. :D

anyway.

school was boring except for the fact that nagbabagsakan na ang grades ko. tae to.

after school was the MORE exciting part.

so after school, sumama na ako kina mitch, as usual. tas nagbihis na kami. kasi, pupunta kaming RP. pero DAPAT, hindi ako makita ni therese na nakacasual. haha. surprise kasi 'dapat' e. haha. pero tong si lyka, anyway.

so yun, RP kami. tas bumili lang dun ng ribbon fries na sobrang tagal. tas pumunta na kaming macdo marcos. at mga 2 oras kaming nagintay dun. talo kami nina carina. 4 palang andun na tas 7 pa dumating sina therese.

dumating sila, at nagtago kami sa BANYO. HAHA! ang nice no. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! banyong banyo. alam ny pa naman ang banyo sa mcdo marcos. MALINIS :)). so yun, nasa loob kaming lahat ng cubicle. haha.

anywaaay. ayun party blah. astig nga e, kasi hindi naman nirentahan yung mcdo, PERO ang swerte. kasi ung isang partihan, kami lang yung nagoccupy. ayos no. hindi yun nirenta a. haha.

blah tinatamad ako mgkwento. visit my private blog. may post din ako dun. :D mas detailed. haha. www.smilescanseemreal.blogspot.com

mood swings

2006-07-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

this day has been tiring. VERY TIRING.

juggling emotions is hard work. it really is. the whole day, ive been laughing an crying and laughing and crying. im not really depressed as depression goes pero im sad.

i was still me. i was still the noisy girl. i was still laughing and reciting alot. but, there were times when i cut myself short, stare into the distance, and cry. maraming beses ko to ginawa ngayong araw.

when i start to cry, i know how to cheer myself up, tataas ko lang kamay ko, at magrerecite. pinipilit ko sarili kong makinig sa mga lectures ng mga teachers,, kaso nagdridrift away parin ung mind ko, tas before you know it, umiiyak na ule ako. paulit ulit to, seryoso. hayy, :(

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ive got ALOT of things to do.

1. advance assignment. MATH.
2. storyboooook! AP! i gotta do this, story must be out,, TOMORROW. shooooot!,,, AND son aahomework. fatay men FATAY.
3. memorize angeluuus, hono hono hono
4. tHE project

and amidst all of these to-do's. im still online chatting and HAVING FUN! bwahaha. nice one, liang. :P

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nagreresearch ako tungkol sa bagong room ko.

itong una, gnyan tlga ung dreambeds ko starting nung maliit pko :D
http://bigsbedrooms.com/product.asp?category=13
at dito naman, ayan yung crib ng bago kong sister.
http://bigsbedrooms.com/product.asp?category=18

isa lang dyan ang totoo. hulaan nyo kung alin. HAHAHA! :D

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anyway.

ang oti ko ngayong nakauwi nako sa bahay. tears,, GOOBYE. haha.

pero alammmyoo ba, tatlong gabi na akong hindi nakakatulog ng matino. as in. 10 ako nahihiga. 1.5-2 hours na nakahiga at nakatulala sa ceiling at paikot ikot na hindi mapakali.. tas 3 hours na tulog, tas magigising 1-2 hours nanaman bago makatulog ule. tas 5 hours.. gising. ok lang sana yun e,, nung wlang pasok, e ngayon, pamatay to.

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more in my other blog. www.smilescanseemreal.blogspot.com

howeell

2006-07-25T04:10:00.001-07:00

you'll find the same moon, same sun, same STARS, no matter where in the world you are. when you look up in the sky, i will wave and just say hi cause i will be waiting for you, my darling too.

kanta yan,, galing sa LITTLE BILL. bwaha naalala ko lang. bwisit walang sun moon and stars ngyng araw/gabi. pero HINDI. HINDI ako sad. pinaalala lang sken ni vanessa yan, kinantahan nea ako ng "twinkle twinkle little STAR" ayun, naaalala ko. :D

>> pero hindi ko ~~sya~~ prinoproblema, sweear:D

ive got a friend with MUCH MUCH bigger problems. swear. and im feeling REALLY bad for them.

friend #1: DOOOOOOOOOOOOONT!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAG!!. pag may kelngan ka, lapit ka lang. pag namromroblema ka, think twice. basta im here anytime. (pagtulog ako, miscall. :D) nagaalala ako sayo. please, ingatan mo sarili mo. im praying for you. i love youu.

friend #2: sbhn mo sknea, kebgan mo ean. she should be more sensitive. am here for you ALWAYS. i love you.

friend #3: parehas kayo ng prob ni friend #4. sawiiiiiii sa pagibig :D. anyway. as i said,, let go. basahin mo ung inaadvice mo kay friend#4. it goes for you too. ang bait bait mong kaibigan. ilove you

friend #4: hindi ka man masydong expressive pero alam ko ang nararamdaman mo. promise. let go. move on. hindi cya galit. promise. andito lang akooooo. i love you.

HAYY. iloveyou guysss. ALOOOOOOT. pag may kelngan kayo. andito lang ako. PROMISE.

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anyway, umalis na si jae. UMALIS NA SI JAAAAEEEEEEEEEE!! :((.

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may pasok na bukas!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! atlast. nabore nako sa bahay. and ive got to see frend #1. kelngan nea ng tulong. nang malibang cya. hayy. IM SO WORRIED,

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friend #1,, you know who you are.

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patay back to schooool! sobra, akala mo, summer e. pero wala, im glad. labooo.:D

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bzzzz. random thoughts, sorry na, gumagalaw lang ng gumagalaw daliri ko e. sorry na!! :))

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BAKIT NAKASULAT BA DYAN?!
-- ayaan ang laging sinasabi ng aking ALMOST FORMER seatmate, ARIEL ANN BERGANTE BUCSIT. ang taray no!? ganyan talaga yan. hindi pa ako sanay. hayy, bukas, iba na seating arrangement. i'll miss you ariel :D

tingnan nyo to.

liang: ariel,, mahihiwaly na tayo bukas
ariel: awww :(
ariel: mamimiss kita...
liang: kaya nga ee
liang: mamimiss ko ang katarayan mo.
liang: promise.
ariel: wala nang kakanta ng kung ano ano sa tabi ko
ariel: wala nang kakanta out of the blue
ariel: nakatitig kung sansan...after 10 sec...kumakanta na
liang: inoorasan mo pla
ariel: kuminsan, may 12 secs...pero kuminsan mabilis...may 6 secs lang
liang: YUN NA!
liang: wala nang laging manguutos, kasi hindi makabend down
liang: wala nang napakahirap icheck na notebook
ariel:sorry na
liang: wala nang mataray "bakit nakasulat ba dyan?"
liang: mamimiss ko ang katarayan mo
liang: bwhhahahaha
ariel: *taas kilay smiley* bakit nakasulat ba dyan???
liang: with the faaace!:))
liang: bagay!
ariel: HAHAHA
ariel: :(
liang: bakit?
ariel: wala lang
liang: bkeeeeeeeeeeeeet?
ariel: WALA LANG NGA EH!
liang: SORRY NA!
ariel: ANO BA GUSTO MONG DAHILAN AH!
ariel: AH, ANO AH!
ariel: SIGA KA AH!
liang: SORRY HA\!
liang: NAGTATANUNG LANG KASI E
liang: MASAMA BA?
ariel: SINABI KO BA AH!
liang: OO SINABI MO.,
liang: ANDAMI MO KAYANG SINASABI
liang: WALA NAMAN ATANG DULO ANG BUNGANGA MO El
ariel: mukha mo.
liang: huh?
liang: dko ngets un e
ariel: ako den eh

BWAHAHA ang benta ng usapan namin :)). sorry na naaliw ako. i'll miss you seatmate!

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tae AMPANGIT NG HALAMAN KO. ako pa naman ang nagchecheck. whoo. niiice.:D

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sabi ng ninong ko: people are like plants, if you don't talk to them its like you dont water the plants, they dry up, they crackle, and they FART.

yun naman kasi si ninong. kagandahan!

kasi kanina, wala akong magawa, magisa ako BUOOOOOOONG araw. tas umuwi si ninong. tas nanood ng tv. e wala tlaga akong magawa. KINULIT KO NG SOBRAAA! tas kinampihan pa ako ni krissy (aso namin). aliiiw, napagod si ninong. HAHA

tas knina, nagchachat ako, ginugulo ako!! GANTIHAN TO AH. haha. so yun. labo.

am very lucky to have my ninong. i love you ninong.

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suuuuuuuuper haba post. sorry na. boreed. am ending this right here. right now.

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tae pahabol., pinaplan na ang room ko sa bagong bahay. AM SO EXCITED. haha. pero kung asa filinvest lang yun. PERFECT NA. sanaaa! :))

parent trap

2006-07-21T06:03:00.000-07:00

this is my 150th post. i want it to be special. i want it to be extraordinary. i want it to reflect,, ME.

unfortunately this is not a happy moment for me. in other words,, KASENTIHAN TO.

i just watched the parent trap. WITH MY MOM. whoo. this is niiice. anyway.. this is about my 10th time to watch this,, and every single time, it makes me cry. my tears usually flow out without hesitation during this movie. this time, i didnt allow it too. my mom was watching too. alangan namang makita niya diba?.

i know this sounds FOOLISH and PATHETIC. especially if you don't know me. all i can say about the movie is.

the parent trap reflects how i feel and gives me hope.

oo na, emote. sana lang hindi kayo manjudge. may kebigan ako na ang violent ng reaction. sa lagay na to, alam nea ang kwento ko. tas parang ang taray pa ng dating niya. honestly, im annoyed. at naluha ako ule. sorry na, sensitive ako ngayon. specially about that topic. pero by tomorrow, wala na yan.

masyado nang trying hard ang mata ko na icontrol ang aking mga luha. malapit na itong pumutok.

ilalabas ko to sa isa kong blog. www.smilescanseemreal.blogspot.com

.........

happy 150th post dear blog, you really do help. im sorry im such an emo kid at the moment. i know id reagret the fact that my 150th post is sad.

NEW BLOG

2006-07-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

i was inspired by jae's new blog. and i made my own too.

its also password protected. i got it from jae who got it from camla. THANK YOU JAE AND CAMLA.

unlike jae, i'll show my url.

WWW.SMILESCANSEEMREAL.BLOGSPOT.COM.

i give my pasword to those i trust most, seeing id write EVERYTHING there.

if you're one of my CLOSEST friends, you may ask me for it.

i'll TRY to write here too. but that is more COMPLETE.

the reason i made a new blog?: im sick and tired of writing my SENTI ENTRIES in this blog. i want a place where i can write ANYTHING in.

in other words, that blog will be full of problems,, something you WOULD'NT want to know. :D:D.

but id put happy stuff there too.

LABO.

ayoooos

2006-07-15T06:50:00.000-07:00

parang kelan lang, kapatiran... tas last week, bdae ni maeca, tas this week, leadership training! masaya rin pala pag every week, may isang araw na hindi ka matutulog sa sarili mong bahay. :D

sooo, simulan natin sa bdae ni kakay.

at ayan ang favorite pic ko. kyut kaya. anyway. :)). pumunta kami kila kay tas nagkwentuhan at nagkainan kami. pagdating ko, andun na si mia at mara. "BUMISITA" si julia, kasi di cya natulog dun. unang natulog si maeca, kaya wala cya sa pic. nagpakavain kaming tatlo, pa"MODELMODEL" pa. natapos kami magkwentuhan ng mga 4:30 na. natulog si mia. naisipan namin ni mara na mas aantukin kami pag natulog kami, kasi 5:30 kami dapat magising. so ayun. nagwala nalang kami. labo :)). ginising namin sila with "what ive been looking for" sabay imitation ng boses ni ashley tisdale. ANG BENTA NI MIA PAG GINIGISING CYA. kasi tinatamad ako magkwento :D nagsimba kami. ANTOK NA ANTOK KMI NI MARA. as in may time na sobrang kurutan para lang magising. dumating yung time na hindi na tlaga makayanan ni mara. kasi day before, 5 cya nagising. ama namin, hawak hawak ko lang cya, mukhang mahuhulog na kasi e. haha. may kabentahan pa si mia dito. =)). nagCME kami pagkatapos, masaya ren un, parang kami lang tao e. tas nkkinis, cxorny ung slde pagpunta namin. grr .:D. dumating si danielle, pero d cya lumangoy. nung liguan na, nahalata naming wala kaming sabon at shanpoo. un naman ang magaling. :D dun kami naglucnh. shet takaw ko. CRISPY PATA :)). pauwi nakatulog ako. by that time, antok na ako. SOBRA. pagdating kina kay, tulog din ako. sabay kain ng COFFEE jelly, tas tulog ule. hanggang sa sinundo si mia at sumabay ako, tulloooog. pag uwi ko, TULOG. 6 na ako nagising:D

LEADERSHIP TRAINING.

steeg nung leadership training. WHOO. galing ng scaa. :D haha. anywayy, after school pakaloner ako, uwian na nila, tas di ko pa mahanap si mara, kawawa naman ako. =)). tas nakita ko si hannah. tas ayun, sabay na kami. :)). naligo kami at bumalik sa HS. sbe nila 4:30 mgsstart, e mga 5 na nagstart. labo. ok lang, late kami e. HAHA. so yun, grinoup kami, tas i was in grouuup 7! masaya sa group namin, ang kakalog e. :)) MONSTERS IN MOTION. ayooos! tas ayun, ice breaker, inspirational talk (oo, nakinig ako. :D) tas survival of the officers na. ang aliw nung game. kasi para cyang mystery something. tas onti lang yung clues namin,, 7/13. pero enjoy. haha! kaso lang ang corny nung pinaka culprit. kasi naman, talagang hula namin si ken afford, kaso naisip namin na imposibleng cya kasi masyadong obvious. kaya ayun, haba ng kewnto namin! MAY KATUTURAN UN. beh :D. yun pala si ken afford lang, nireverse reverse psychology kami. LABO. geetss? :)) (sympre mga officers lang ang makakaintindi nyan :D) anyway. nagenjoyy kami!! THANKS SCAA! :D

badtrip ako nung gabi ng leadership training. sayang nga e. wala ung utak ko sa moment na yun. naalala ko kasi SYA. hayy :(. si max lang nakakaalam kung sino yan. hindi nga lam nina angge e. buti tinext ako ni max nung gabing yan, kahit asa i-4 lang ako atsya asa yr 4. layo no! thanks max, ilove youu!
---------mas maganda parin ako sau. :D:))

next week din ata, wala ako sa bahay. sana sana. bdae ni iris e. tas next next week, bdae ni mia. ITO NA ANG EXCITED. whoo :D

--yan na ang hindi senti, yehees! nawala na ang curse ko. :D

happy dappy yuck labo

2006-07-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

kung nahahalata nu lang, mejo badtrip ang mga posts ko. sorry na badtrip ako last week e. pero honestly, hindi na ngayon. natamaan lang ako kagabi kaya ako nakapagsulat ng isa pang madamdaming post. tinatamad na ako magsulat ngayon e,, ginanahan lang ako nung badtrip ako. :D

anyways.

bago na ang blog ko. YIPEEE ang tagal narin nung isa kong layout e. :)) purple & blue na ako ule :)) asan na si piiink? labo :D

at dahil sa kawalan ng ginagawa,, baka magawan ko narin si ida. dangtagal na cyang humihingi :)). bastos :))

WALA DAW PASOK BUKAS

shit naman o. ok lang sana ngyon.. wag lang bukas. LEAADERRRSHIPPP TRAAINNNINNNG. nakakaiiniiis! excited pa naman ako, kahit eco officer lang :))

tae tntamad ako magsulat :D

another sad post

2006-07-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

nakabasa ako sa isang blog.

"nothing good comes from something bad"

shit pare, sapol. no wonder im no good. :((.

just when i was thinking this, naluluha ako. pero hindi ako umiyak.

nanood ako sa youtube. nung grand finals ng LBS,, hindi ko napanood un e.

tas ang kanta!!! JOURNEY TO THE PAST

shit naman ang timing diba,

nung time na 'to. hindi na napigilan ng mata ko. hagulgul pala ang kalabasan.

:((

not so nice. :(

2006-07-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

naiinis ako sa sarili ko.

naiinis talaga ako. ANO BA NANGYAYARI SAKIN!? i hate this. ayaw ko na.

i HATED THE kanina. SOBRA!! sapol un e.
-----------i learned something new. OUCH. shet. angsakit nun a. tae.
i HATE the NEW schedule. tae, 8:30 plang, recess na?! 5 subjects sa hapon.
i HATE my science textbook, naiwan ko sa locker.
i HATE the movie we watched in filipino,, ang sad nung story.
i HATE myself for hating all these things
i HATE this feeling.
i HATE being me.
i HATE being uncertain.
i HATE being sad

ayoko na. :(

bakit ba ganto? bakit ba andaming bagay na nakakababa ng loob ko? bakit kailangan may mga nangyayari na hindi kanais-nais? bakit ang fragile ko na bigla, lahat ng bagay nalang pinoproblema ko? bakit lahat ng masamang pedeng mangyari iniisip ko. bakit hindi nalang ung maganda? bakit hindi ako macontecontento sa kung anong meron ako? bakit kelangan ko pa ng mas marami pa? bakit ba hindi matrust ang sarili ko para gawin ang tamang bagay? bakit hindi ko na matrust ang sarili ko? bakit wala na akong tiwala sa mundo? bakit lagi nalang akong inaatake ng ganitong mga damdamin pero hindi ko man lang malabas at masabi kahit kanino?
SHIT. :((

damn changes

2006-06-25T18:37:00.000-07:00

"alm mo, hindi mo lang alam, malay mo ikaw pala ang nagchange. ikaw ang nagbago kaya sila nagbago ren sau. cguro naiinis sila. "

-may nagsabi sakin niyan. kung sino yun, hindi importante. pero may nagsabi niyan sakin. at para sa nagsabi,, hindi ako galit sau. naapektuhan lang ako sa sinabi mo., hindi ko sinasabi na hindi ka tama, hindi ko sinasabi na masama ka. naapektuhan lang talaga ako.

TOTOO BA TO SAKIN?

ewan. nasesenti ako. naninibago pa ako sa bagong surroundings bagong situations. naninibago ako sa mga tao sa paligid ko. hindi ko sinasabi na sumama sila or anything. iba lang talaga. iba ang feeling na hindi ka na 7-3. iba ang feeling pag hindi mo na kaklase ibang kaklase mo dati. iba ang feeling pag hindi mo alam kung ano mangyayari.

may naiba rin ba sakin? totoo bang naiinis sila? totoo bang ako ung sanhi kung bakit ako naninibago sa mga tao sa paligid ko? kung bakit sila nagbago ren sa paniningin ko?

ang gusto ko nalang talaga ngayon ay na bumalik na lahat sa "proper places" nito. ayoko na ng pagbabago. hindi ba pede magrewind ng time? nakakatakot. :(

i wanna go back to 7th grade. i wanna go back to 7-3. i wanna go back to how things used to be. ayoko na nagchange ako. ayus lang sana kung for the better. e sa lagay na to naiinis daw sakin e. panu un? ayoko na sa paningin ko nagchange ang iba dahil nagchange ako. ayoko na. shitshitshit.

I WANNA GO BACK TO THE PAST.
I WANNA BE ME. AND BE ACCEPTED FOR IT. :((

hate this, :'(

remembering.

2006-06-25T17:21:00.000-07:00

we went to SM megamall earlier. i went to powerbooks to read while my mom was doing something, uhm, boring.

i went to gonuts donuts. and ofcourse, i passed by toy kingdom. i remember the days when i just loved to RUN inside and SEE all the colorful toys. when i was in my "doll stage" i remember a time when i wanted a baby's cradle from toy kingdom and when my mom didn't buy it, i CRIED all the way home. i remember about 3 years ago. i had this collection. silvanias. it was uber cool. I LOVED IT. i still have that collection. though it is now in the "bodega" and its not for display anymore. pero fairness, astig na astig ako dun :D. i think that was THE LAST TIME i bought something from toy kingdom.

sana sa bago naming bahay sa marikina, may space ako para idisplay silvanias ko. :D

THEN i sa papamelroti (sp?) aien told me about this store so i took a peek. AND OF COURSE, i passed by the skating rink. this then lead me to another walk down memory lane. i LOOOOVED to skate when i was 7 years old. and i had so much fun. at that time, the rink in Sta. Lu was still open. we skated there every friday night and saturdays. I felt so professional then. i had my ice skating bag. with my own ice skates. i was so feeling that i even wore leotards and tights. (alam ko, ang feeling talaga.) i loved the feeling of going as fast as i could. ang kapal pa nga ng mukha namin nun e. alam mo yung parang after basan yung ice at napakadulas na, yung hindi pa pinapapasok ung mga tao kasi masyadong slippery. may time na pinapapasok na kami nun. as in mga 10 lang pinapapasok, karamihan samin, mga 12 na. tas kami ng friends ko, 7 palang. (oo, ang feeling nanaman). pero sa totoo lang, I MISS the feeling of running and running with the COLD air against your face. i miss the wet feeling when i slipped. i miss the lessons i had were in i felt a sense of accomplishment when i learned something new.

pumasok tuloy bigla sa utak ko. i had piano lessons before. infairness, 3 years din ako nagpiano. pero i can't say that i loved it. not as much as ice skating that is. BUT i still miss playing the piano SERIOUSLY. namiss ko ren yung feeling of accomplishment pag bago na yung pyesa ko.

now thinking about it, i dont think i really started and finished anything BIG. i played the piano. but i stopped. i enrolled in voice. and i was singing for 1 1/2 years. and i stopped. i tried the violin one summer. and i stopped. WHY IN THE WORLD DO I KEPP STOPPING.

pero sa totoo lang, may mga rason ako. piano: nahiya ako sa teacher. bwisit ko kasi e. tss. voice: i guess i got "less decicated" maraming ginagawa nung grade 7. i wasnt able to attend all the classes. violin: pinili ko ung voice over violin.

and this realization lead to another one. I WAS NOT ME during my grade 7 year. i was DISTRACTED, i was UNDEDICATED. hayy, sayang ang isang taon. IM GONNA DO BETTER THIS YEAR.

which then lead me to another thought:
when we were in singapore, and i was on my own for 2 days. i was shopping EVERYWHERE. i looked in the ladies section and i found stuff that were too pricey for me. most of the things i bought were from the childrens section. and while i was looking around. i kept imagining i had my "baby sisters" with me. i imagined that i have a kuya, a TWIN sister, and a baby sister. i know,, FANTASY. as i went inside toys are us. i imagined buying toys for my sister. who i imagined was 7 years old. i imagined playing with the toys i bought her afterwards. while i was in zara, i saw all the BEAUTIFUL clothes for young girls. i imagined having a sister who i dressed up. i imagined walking down orchard road with a little girl by my side holding my hand. i imagined talking about stuff with her. (alam kong parang nagmumukhang nakalimutan ko na ang twin sister at kuya ko. sorry, iba't-ibang oras ng mga araw na yun ko naisip ung ibat-iba kong "kapatid"). i imagined seeing life in a 7 year old's eyes again. while crossing the street, i imagined feeling protective of my fragile sister. i imagined having someone to actually talk to. (mejo pumasok na ang twin at kuya sa part na to. ) i imagined that while walking on that foreign street, i was expressing my feelings. and the even WEIRDER THING IS, while i imagine such things, i actually PRETEND to do them, i speak on my own. laugh on my own and ACT the parts i am imagining. PATHETIC, i know.

alam kong ang haba na ng post kong ito. sorry nasesenti na ako.

BACK TO THE NORMAL ORDINARY TOPIc. :))

kapatiran

i had LOAAADS of fun. sooo, kwento?

1st costume day: pokemon head, winter clothes and elephant feet. the winter clothes were HARD. it was FREEZING hot. :D. i can never explain the relief when we got into the computer room. I WAS HAPPY enough that my head was starting to fall and my eyes were closing. niiiice :))

sheen, lyka and i didnt go home with the service. sumabay kami kina mitch at therese.

2nd costume day: i was dressed as an OCTOPUS. aaand. nakalimutan ko na. :))

OVERNIGHT: my sister and i decided to be "sadako" in our twin costume. mitch lent me her lab gown. THANK YOU MITCH. ayun, parade parade.

after school, we went to our service so our stuff could be sent home. (NAKALIMUTAN NI KUYA MARVIN IUWI UNG AKIN. NKAKAINIS, WALA AKONG HOMEWORK). after that, aien, ida and i just hung out in the playground. we didnt take a bath yet. by that time, i was feeling pretty down. when we went back to the classroom, i heard familiar music. OUR TRUMPETS DANCE. i just ran over and DANCED. it brightened up my mood*

*(i dont know why but im already loving dancing. i love the feeling of exerting effort into my body and sweating. i dance EVERYWHERE. seryoso to. sumasayaw ako kahit saan, kahit kailan, pero sympre hindi bigay todo. kamay lang. pero alam mo yun. the BEAT pre, the beat. haha. :D )

after that we had our games. SECTION THREE WON. whoo!! ayus to ah.

we ate dinner. DINNER WAS UBER FUN. we had a table in the HS caf and we had SO MANY FOOD. sobra!!! ang saya lumamon with our 4th year ates/. ANG SAYA TALAGA NUN. had the candle ceremony and watched sisterhood of the traveling pants. ive read the book thrice but i havent watched the film. i didnt finish it though.

aien, ida, and i hung out in the playground again. yun na ang usapang seryoso. it was pretty nice if you ask me. bonding bonding lang to. then ida left to take a bath. tinamad kami ni aien, we stayed in in the swing, and we talked. ito na yung talagand heart to heart. aien left and i went to clara and sam. hindi pa ako naliligo nito. nakita ko sina catan at sumama ako sakina paligo. SA MULTI. masaya ren maghintay. kung tutuusin. nagkantahan at sayawan lang kami. ang only people na nakita namin ay mga guard. haha. i took abath at 12:50 and we got to the classroom at 1:00. galing namin e no. astig kaya sa sec 3. dinagsa ng mga tao. as in PUNO yung classroom namin. sayaa. after that, kwentuhan na. himala si ida hindi pa inaantok. TAPOS, nadepress ako. whoo, iyakan na to. pero si aien lang nakakaalam. atleast. the day ended(started) with my famous chikahan with clara :)). ayus na ako by this time. pero kung tutuusin. si aien lang talag ayung nakaalam. niiice :))

mukhang successful talaga yung kapatiran. mas nagkaroon ng sense of comfortability with the 4th year and highschool as a whole. masaya talaga.

THANK YOU SA AKING KAPATIRAN SISTER NA KAMUKHA KO DAW.. SI ATE ME-ANN.
i had LOADS of fun.

whoo, uber long post. tama ito. pahirapan magbasa, :D

huling hirit. pumunta nga pala si mia at julia nung thursday, I MISS THEM SO MUCH!

isa pa to. naawa ako kay ano. hayy. I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. LOVE YOU DUDE.

PPPS. HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL NA. ito ang excited :))

long, long, LOOOONG day,

2006-06-20T03:40:00.000-07:00

LONG TIME NO POST. I THANK YOU, DEAR DSL, FOR BEING "MAAYUS" NA NOW.
(shit ang arte nun pakinggan. )

ewan ko kung bakit, ang arte ko magsalita ngayong araw. NAKAKAINIS. parang kanina sinabi ko kay mikee "ang BAD mo" =)) sana ngayong araw lang yan :))

kapatiran kapatiran kapatiran. whoo, bait ng sis ko :D bukas, costume ko,, pokemon na head, winter clothes, pati elephant legs. un na. ung winter clothes, sabi ng sis ko, bathrobe nlng daw. ttnung ko kng pedeng jacket. :D. hahah!!

shit may homework pa pala ako. shit shit shit.

naiinis ako sa someone. sobra, arte ko nanamang magsalita. SORRY na!! :))

wow, highschool na ako.

2006-06-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

AFTER THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, ALL I CAN SAY IS..............

miss ko na ang gradeschool.

i-3 ako. NAMIMISS KO NA ANG 7-3! waaaaaa!! pero sa totoo lang, feeling ko na magiging masaya rin tong class na to. sana sana.

kaklase ko si ida, camla, catan, jean, fami at yzza. SAYA SAYA!! hindi ko classmate sina clara,,, sina irisss,, sina liiiz. nakakamiss :(.

MISS KO NA SI MIA.

MISS KO NA SI JAE.

ANDAYA NG GRADE 7 NGAYON,, ANGGAGANDA NG TEACHERS NILA.

E SA AMIN,, PURO NEW FACES. UGHH.

TIC NAMIN SI MS CRUZ. DI KO SYA MSYDO LIKE.

CN 05 AKO. IN OTHER WORDS, NASA TABI KO LAGI ANG TEACHERS. PATAY NA. BAWAL MAINGAAY!!

gusto ko na ule maging officer. haha!!! kung tutuusin, from gr 3-6 officer ako. :)) pero maingay na ako ngayon e,, bawal na :))

i've overthinked alot of stuff. as in 1st day palang ng schoolyear, naanticipate ko na ang 10 months of first year. HAHA!

yun na, tamad na ako magpost.

SEVEN THREEEE!!! miss ko na kayo :(

blah blah blah

2006-06-12T00:38:00.000-07:00

came home from singapore yesterday. not really in the mood to share my MANY stories :D

arrived home at 5:30

left at 6:00

to go to (drumroll please.. HAHA DRUMS!) MIA's HOUSE!!

their parents just o so suddenly thought of having a "huling hirit" party. and as usual "isama nyo yung girls" :)). had SOOO MUUUCH FUUUN! was with mia, maeca, julia *ang tatlong aalis* mara, angge, yzza, carissa, bea, jaemi, roxy, monique, patram. kung may namiss man ako. SORRY. haha. mara, julia, maeca and i lined up for bea's drum lessons. HAHA! yun na ang tawag! tas nagsi babyfreeze kami dun. :)). at kwentuhan. SAYA SAYA!

pics:

see. popular nun ang baby freeze. AT ANGGALING NI MARA. (sya yung vertical line. na naing horizontal,, kce dko pa naaayos :)) haha) cellphone pics :))

tas sinend na ni maeca ang ibang pichoors namin nung pumunta kaming ABS. (april pa 'to). at nsa trip akong ilagay dito. haha. teka, kulang parin to. wala pa yung dun sa gameknb.

as i said, hindi pa yan kumpleto. haha!!

teka, i g2g, puro pics na ang post na to.

btw,, PASUKAN NA BUKAS!!! ARGHHH *excited na scared*

:))

singapore

2006-06-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

at ako'y nandito, nakaharap sa computer sa isang inet cafe sa singapore. wala akong makwento, bumili na ako ng digicam. sanyo. himala hindi sony. magrereact si camla, nahahalata ko lagn :)). naeexcite ako magshopping. :)) CAMLA ANLAKI NUNG ZARA DITO!!! :)) naeexcite akoooooooo!! tas adventure ako sa friday and saturday libot ako magisa. tas maubusan ako ng pera,, etc. :))

naeexcite na talaga ako shumopping. :)) mas enjoy sana kung hindi ako magisa at kasama ko sina catan at camla dahil sila ung pumipili ng damit. pero,, ok na :))

ALIW!!!!

2006-06-05T06:29:00.001-07:00

"Pinoy Truisms"

Ang buhay ay parang bato, it's hard.

Better late than pregnant.

Behind the clouds are the other clouds.

It's better to cheat than to repeat!Do unto others... then run!!!

Kapag puno na ang salop, kumuha na ng ibang salop.

Magbiro ka na sa lasing, magbiro ka na sa bagong gising, 'wag lang sa lasing na bagong gising.

When all else fails, follow instructions.Ang hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling wika, lumakisa ibang bansa.

To err is human, to errs is humans.Ang taong nagigipit...sa bumbay kumakapitPag may usok...may nag-iihaw.

Ang taong naglalakad nang matulin... may utang.

No guts, no glory... no ID, no entry.

Birds of the same feather that prays together... stays together.

Kapag may sinuksok at walang madukot, may nandukot.

Walang matigas na tinapay sa gutom na tao.

Ang taong di marunong lumingon sa kanyang pinanggalingan ....ay may stiff neck.

Birds of the same feather make a good feather duster.

Kapag may tiyaga, may nilaga. Kapag may taga, may tahi.

Huli man daw at magaling, undertime pa rin.

Ang naglalakad ng matulin, late na sa appointment.

Matalino man ang matsing, matsing pa rin.

Better late than later....

Aanhin ang palasyo kung ang nakatira ay kuwago, mabuti pa ang bahay kubo, sa paligid puno ng linga.

Kapag maikli ang kumot, tumangkad ka na!

No man is an island because time is gold.

Hindi lahat ng kumikinang ay ginto... muta lang yan.

Kapag ang puno mabunga... mataba ang lupa!

When it rains...it floods.

Pagkahaba haba man ng prusisyon... mauubusan din ng kandila.

Ang buhay ay parang gulong, minsan nasa ibabaw, minsan nasa vulcanizing shop.

Batu-bato sa langit, ang tamaan... sapul.

Try and try until you succeed... or else try another.

Ako ang nagsaing... iba ang kumain. Diet ako eh.

Huwag magbilang ng manok kung alaga mo ay itik.

Kapag maiksi na ang kumot, bumili ka na ng bago.

If you can't beat them, shoot them. (Nalundasan)

An apple a day is too expensive.

An apple a day makes seven apples a week. (really expensive)

nakita ko lang yan sa blgo ni Ala Paredes. at aliw na aliw ako. :))
gusto ko idagdag ang isa sa mga paborito kong linya. na nung grade 6 ko pa sinasabi: ba't ganito ang buhay? parang LIFE!

yakk anlabo :D

ALIW!!!!

2006-06-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

WAHAHA

2006-06-04T21:35:00.000-07:00

naiinis ako sa nanay ko. bwisit cya kagabi. NAKAKAINIS! PINATAY BA DAW BA ANG TV HABANG TINANONG SI GERALD KUNG MAY PLANO CYANG LIGAWAN SI KIM!??? nakakaiiiniiiis! =))

pero ayus na ATA kami. dapat lang no. mastustuck ako ng 5 days na cya lang kasama!! babalik kaming singapore. ewan ko na! :))

sa totoo lang, napakaadventure sakin ang pagbalik sa singapore. kasi naman, nanay ko may seminar. tas ako lang magisa. kahit ano gusto ko gawin, pede ko gawin. tas lilibot ako dun magisa. WOW! :)) adventure nga. sa pinas hindi ako pede magadventure, sa singapore pede. :)) magcocommute lang ako kung saan saan. :)) exciting.

btw, unlike last time, roaming ako. sa mga nakaaglobe. lalo na sa line. text nyo naman ako o, MAAWA! :))

sinu gusto ng pasalubooonggg?? ahy :))

naooti ako. why o why?

LSS parin sa pengyou. :)) anu kaya kung kakantahin ko ito sa singapore. e mga tao dun CHINESE! :)) yaaak! :))

malabo utak ko. mukhang uulan. wait. konek?

:))

tama na nga

"kahit na magkalayo, nandito ka sa aking puso"

2006-06-03T23:22:00.000-07:00

NANALO SI KIM!!! PARTYHAN NA!

ay anlabo :)) sobra, kami ng katulong namin, habang nanonood nagpapalakpak kami, HARR!!

naaaliw nanaman ako sa peng you. gsto ko talaga matutunan. hanggang chunisandre kwilerh lang ako e mali pa spelling!! sorry na, K2 palang ako nun. :)) meron akong stamp, huliangliang. tas ung stamp pad pa ung traditional na stamp pad ng chinese. ung handle pa ng stamp, monkey. year of the monkey ako e. asan na kaya yun!??!!? tas dati, alam ko pa kung pano isulat pangalan ko.. pano nga baaa?!?! KIM!! PANO ISULAT ANG HU LIANG LIANG!! :)) pronounced as: hulyanglyang) :))!! KIMMMM!! yak anlabo :))

tanyo stats ko. ahahaha! para sa "ano" ko nanaman yan. pare anlayo mo kasi e! pero 'pre, iloveu parin. YUCK PARE ANG TAWAG!! =))

MERON NA AKONG LYRICS NG PENG YOU!!! hahahaha!!! AARALIN KO TO!! :))

tas ttwgan ko tatay ko, sabay kanta.

WHATEVER!!

=)) mangarap lang liang! =))

WAHAHAHAH!! NAAALIW AKO!!! WAHAHAHAHAHHA!!

teka, oti nanaman ako dito!! :))

"liang, pageighteen ka na, susunduin ka na nyan"
-camille ladores.

I WISH! =))

ocge na, kakanta na ako. wawang kapitbahay. =)) pag bumagyo ule mamaya. uhm :))

electricityyy!

2006-06-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

nakakainis. brown out dito. 6pm to 12 am. RARR!!!

nakakainis din. ayaw nanama gumana ng cbox.

Trixie: liaaaaaaaaang, wag kang mainggit, pareho lang tayong nararamdaman.. siguro magkaiba ng reason pero gets.. may feeling rin ako na kinaiinggitan ko ung ibang tao everytime nakikita ko sila with their..
Trixie: gets?
Trixie onga, maganda ung peng you.. lss ko rin un e. :)) liang, im here to comfort you. :D if you need me.. herehere. ayy! :)) drama e no? :))

-- trixie, i know, i know. di ka ol e, nakakainiiiis! :))

tanja: link mo ko!nalink na kita.. =) uy,, may special sum1 ka pala ah!:))
tanja: uhm...i think mean girls yung movie..=)

-- tanja. ocge :)). tangi, hindi special someone un, special cya. pero hindi ung iniisip mo. =)) laboo :D oo nga, mukhang mean girls. sorry na, wala akong malay sa mundo :))

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alam kong nakakapagtaka kung pano ako nakasurvive ng 6 hours na nagpipigil ng pagiisip. HAHA! mahirap kaya magpigil ng pagiisip. nakakainis kasi e yakk. labo :))

teka, kaninang 6, nagsulat ako sa notebook kong luma. ito un. mejo senti ako nun e, buti hindi natuloy tuloy. =))

"A storm suddenly hit the antipolo/marikina area. and POOF! electricity was out, WONDERFUL TIMING!

i hate times like this. the silence makes me think."

teka,, walang kwenta pala nasulat ko. HAHAHA! hindi ko na ilalagay.. NAKAKASHY! =))

pero onga, napigilan ko ang utak ko for 6 hours! pano? NAGBASA AKO NG DALAWANG LIBRO! unfortunately, ung napili ko pang basahin e ung libro na hindi pang reading list. :))
i should've taken the opportunity to read a book i am too tamad to read. HA! TALINO KO!

isa pang way para madivert attention ko from him (guy in the other post). think of hiiiim (guy na hindi mo kilala. HAHAHAH!) un naman e, ginagawang panakip-butas si (guy na hindi mo kilala. HAHAHAH!) ayus lan yan. hindi nea naman alam e. HAHAAHHAH!

forgive me. i know i make no sense. :))

tekaa, nahyhyper nanaman ang mga daliri ko. eewan ko na ang masusulat ko dito.

wag na nga, baka ano pa ang masulat ko e. teka, ANLABO NUN A :))

twin topics. pareho nakakasenti. harr

2006-06-01T08:06:00.000-07:00

sobrang naLLSS ako sa kanta si kim sa pbb. ung chinese song. peng you. hindi lang dahil CHINESE ito, agganda ng lyrics. kinopya ko nga e. gusto ko matutunan kantahin ang chinese version. tas kakantahan ko tatay ko. AHY!? asa,, asa.

sa lahat ng luha, lagi kang may kasama
sa gitna ng ulan, may karamay ka kaibigan
sa tatahakin mong __________________
di ka na magiisa, kaibigan

sorry, nakaligtaan ko ung isang line. naalala ko tuloy si ____ hayy :

i've always thought you were the best
i guess i always will.
i've always felt that we were blessed
~~and i feel that way still~~

sometimes we took the hard road
but we always saw it through.
if i had only one friend left
i'd want it to be you.

I MISS YoUUU!!

gusto ko talaga kay kim. sana manalo cya. kce nga naman, i have to support my fellow chinese!! HAHA!!! naaliw ako nung kumanta cya ng happy birthday na chinese. un nalang naalala ko e. tas dati, nakantahan ko na tatay ko ng happy birthday. nung wala pa akng malay.

nanonood ako ng disney channel kanina.. tas may lumabas na greeting. "happy FATHER'S day!"
shit oras na naman maiinggit. hayy :( THE SEASON OF JEALOUSY

"i know i am blessed with so much. i may seem to be a bit ungrateful sometimes. i am aware of this. i just cant help to long for the day you tell me that you love me. 'cos i love you so much. i know that because you are not present, i was able to gain alot of blessings and that that makes me stronger everyday. maybe its god's way of making me entrust my self to him. just because i dont have you,

i feel incomplete. foolish this may seem. i guess it's just because i am SO envious. i envy people who have the person you are supposed to me. i look at my pictures and think if i'll ever be in a picture with you. if we're ever going to smile in a picture. if we'd ever be happy together. if you'd ever even SEE me happy. and the other way around.

i keep wondering what you look like. ofcourse i've seen pictures of you before. but i don't think that you'd look the same way after thirteen years. you sent us a picture of you about 5 years ago. and i have never seen you eversince.

as i was writing this, a sudden thought came into my mind. i guess i would've tried my best to be an honor student if you were around. just the thought of going onstage with you is the greatest reward for the hard work. just having you standing beside me would make me proud of you. i want to show you off to my friends. i want to tell them how good you are. i want to share stories about how much you love me.

at home i always pretend. a moment ago, i went into my mother's room to turn the internet on. i said goodnight to her too. i was smiling and acting happy. and when i went back to the computer, tears began streaming from my eyes AGAIN. yes, im an actress. i cant help it. she musnt know.

many times in my life have i caught myself wanting to stop time. i didnt want to experience something new without you by my side. i didnt want to experience another milestone without you being happy for me. its as if i want to freeze the moment so i could wait for you.

i miss you. alot. in every step i take, i never fail to think, 'what if you were there to celebrate with me. what if you were there to share my glee? what if you were there to SEE me growing and changing? would you be proud of me?' of course i know these answers were made to be unanswered. i just cant help it. i wish you were here with me.

i love you so much. i guess what saddens me is the thought that you do't love me back. you have'nt responded to my email which was sent a few weeks ago. my christmas greeting, you didn't reply to, either. everytime i open my mailbox, i ALWAYS check to see if you wrote to me FIRST. and every time, i see my inbox without a single message from you,. not even a simple 'hello'. you will never know how much a 'hello' means to me. "

i dont want to think anymore. LIANG. STOP.

wonderful movie

2006-05-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

i watched a movie in HBO earlier. unfortunately, i do not know it's title.

i LOVE the movie. lindsay lohan plays the lead role. no, i dont like lindsay lohan. haha. its about this girl who was "tortured" by the leader of the "cool group" of girls who were called "the plastics". (the name speaks for itself). this group was very superficial. all they cared about was how they looked and how many people worshipped them. linsday's original plan was to befriend the plastics to have revenge on its leader. lindsay was a new girl in that school. the first friend she gained was not in the "cool crowd". they teamed up against regina, the leader of the plastics. they planned various schemes which would bring regina down. the plastics kept this slam book which had lots of gossip about the people in their school. it was ful of mean things that they kept laughin about.

life was turning up for lindsay (nakalimutan ko ung name nung character,, cady ata). she was a popular kid who was very influential among her peers. she was crushing on this guy, aaron. and aaron was giving hints that he liked her too. unfortunately, all the attention got to her head. she was being like regina. she was a traitor to her bestfriend. wind blew the opposite direction for lindsay. her bestfriend was against her. aaron decided he like the "old" lindsay better.

to make things worst, regina showed the principal their slam book and said that lindsay wrote all the mean things there. she also photo copied the pages and let everyone see it. every one got mad at lindsay.

in the end, lindsay learned her lesson.

(tinatamad na ako magsummary :D)

though not as harsh as the discrimination in lindsay's school, i think that this kind of labeling is happening in AA, too. sorry to say, im one of the oppressors. yes, i am sorry. iiwasan ko na po ito. promise. :D

i guess its pretty hard being left out. i remember the time when.... nevermind. bad bad memories. tss. i guess i did to others what others did to me. this is something that i SWORE i would never do. but i did. im so bad. and im so sorry. hayy.

kanina andami kong gusto isulat ngayon, nawala na ito sa utak ko.

siguro isasama ko to sa mga favorite kong movie kung alam ko lang ang title nito. HAHA

sympre nasa listahan na ang PARENT TRAP. haha! hinding hindi na yon matatanggal! :))

gusto ko ren ang highschool musical kahit hindi ko pa ito napapanood. gusto k ng gnun e. athletic, magaling kumanta, magaling sumayaw, may itsura, kulang nalang kung matalino. kung yon napagsamasama, PERFECT na. ahy.. :)) kung gnun lang ako e. HAHA! asa lang liang. ASA!:))

teka, ayaw nanaman ata tigilan ng daliri ko itong keyboard na ito. kung sabagay, gumagabi na, baka antok nga ito. pero ewan. hindi pa naman ako inaantok ah, ATA.

siguro sa inis din to. naguusap kami ni mithc ngayon e, tas pinaguusapan namin si tooooooooooot. nakakainis cya. gaya gaya. HATE HER! pare makikita kita sa pasukan, masusuya ako sa pagmumukha mo. shit kaaa!! HATE HER!! GRR! gayagayagayagayagaya, as mitch says, KAKARMAHIN KA REN! BWAHAHAHAH! (evil laugh). nababaliw na ata ako. haha!

teka. ang baliw ko nga. BAKIT BA!? hahahaha! ayoko na nga, magmumukha nanaman akong tanga. mejo mahaba na naman ang post na ito diba.. tas 2 posts for the day na ako. parehas pa mahaba. parehas ba INSIGHTFUUL(kung may word man na ganun) HAHAH!

aalis na nga. oting oti na.

tv patrol

2006-05-31T03:54:00.000-07:00

kakapanood ko lang ng TV patrol. sinabi ni ERAP na may consipiracy daw kaya sya napababa sa pwesto. nangyari ako nung wala pa akong malay sa politika. kaya hindi ko alam kung totoo ang plunder cases niya. sabi niya na si lopez daw at si ayala nagpapataas ng bayad sa tubig. at hindi ciya pumayag, kasi daw PROPOR (pro poor) siya. si cardinal sin naman, kasi, pinaglaban niya ang sundalo vs abu sayaff. atbp.

nung isang araw. sinabi nea sa media, na si GMA ang nagpapapatay sa mga lefties. bakit nea pa ito kailangan sabihin? umeeksena nanaman siya! if i know, ikaw dyan ang nagpapapatay sa mga lefties para lang mapagbintangin si GMA e!. parang dati!! si ___ pumatay kay ninoy aquino para mapagbintangan si marcos! dog eat dog world nga naman. at hindi lang eat e. kill pa. tss.

teka, akala niya ba na ang mga pahayag niya na ito ay nakakatulong sa taong bayan? sa pilipinas? akala ko ba PROPOR (pro poor) siya. tingin niya ba makakatulong ito sa "poor?"

nung pumunta ako sa singapore, narealize ko ang dahilan kung bakit umuunlad ito, at ang pilipinas, nd. POLITICAL STABILITY. ang problema naman kasi sa pilipinas ay na lahat ay naglalaban laban sa politiko. sarili lang nila ang iniisip nila. biruin nyo ba naman. alam naman ng ibang mga presidential candidate na maraming masworthy sa kanila e! bakit sila tumatakbo? PERA? siguro naman alam nila na kung hindi sila nakatapos ng pagaaral ay hindi sila makakatakbo ng isang bansa diba??

erap, hindi mo naman kailangan manggulo a, ano ba balak mo? bumalik ule sa pwesto? pwet mo!
contrary to popular belief, hindi ako pro GMA. pero kung tutuusin, may time na napaakyat niya ang ekonomiya. at tumaas na rin ang piso. siguro nga naman. lahat ng mga goverment officials ay may hangarin ding kabutihan. siguro kahit si ERAP rin. pero hindi naman nila magagawa ang inaasahang kabutihan kung hindi sila magtulong-tulong. they should set aside their differences, put the philippines before themselves. wala naman atang use ang kanilang ginagawang pagtataksil diba.

:(

2006-05-30T18:59:00.000-07:00

sinusubukan kong ilagay lahat ng pics sa multiply ko. sobrang dami nito. ewan ko na.

kagabi, dinagdag ko na ang pictures ng despedia ni mia.

ito ang link

http://liaaang.multiply.com/photos/album/7

sorry na. ang oti ko dyn.

anyway, amboring na ng mundo. wala nang trumpets e. nakakamiss talaga. hay :(.

teka, wala na talaga akong masabi.

miss ko na ang sdtc. :(

SDTC! SDTC! SDTC!

2006-05-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

i had THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME!

it was our showcase earlier.

at exactly 10 am, my hair was cut. and it is now SHORT :

catan and camla came over at about 1 pm. WE TALKED ABOUT STUFF. haha! un naman ang pinagusapan natin e no. we fixed our make up and hair (inayusan nila ako.) =)) AND HAD LOADS OF FUN. haha! un naman e, exage ako. haha!!

we got to the AFP theater at about 4:30. we watched the first show. by this time, we were all REALLY nervous :D. after the first show, we went backstage and "got ready" for our presentation. by this time, people were running around taking PICTURES and practising steps. fun fun

first up was kids a. then IT WAS OUR TURN! sobra, we were so cold and SCARED. but when we got on that stage. i lost my nervousness,, sympre may aprehensions at "tinatago" BUT I HAD FUN! whoooo! di ako pumalpak nung nsa front nd center ako. congrats me.

after nung dance namin, we went to the audience are and watched the advance.

we were called again to "wave" our certificates :)). tas pichoor pichoor na

then.. IT WAS TIME TO GO. IM GONNA MISS TEENS C! :(.

fortunately, i took pictures with most of my classmates. sayang hindi lahat! :)). GAMIT KO PA UNG PHONE NI CARINA! =))

URGH!! labo. :D

2006-05-27T07:35:00.000-07:00

BAGO NA ANG LAYOUT KO

shit shit shit. showcase na bukas. IM SCARED! sa front and center ko. OH NO!!! hala hala hala. go liang. u can do this! weh,. haha!! mag aayusan kami dito sa house namin ng 1 pm. tska practice na rin. whooo, im scareed! BUT excited. HAHA!

pero, bukas na ung last time na makikita ko ang SDTC. :(. gonna miss them. :(

NAKAKAINIS! BIG 4 SI CLARE!!!!

dapat ang big four ay,,

kim
mikee
gerald
jam.

TAS UMEPAL SI CLARE!! INIS INIS

sorry na, un ang nasa isip ko e :))

kanina cumoconcert nanaman ako dito sa bahay. tas biglang UMULAN! un naman ang power of my voice,, napapatears of joy. HAHA! biro lagn :D

wlang ol. nkkinis!

=))

2006-05-26T22:25:00.000-07:00

PAPALITAN KO NA SKIN KO.
as if ang big deal e no.

=))

pero, wla pkong maisip. =))

fun fun fun fun fun!!!!!

2006-05-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

I HATE COPYCATS! BAWAT LAGAY KO SA BLOG KO, GINAGAYA MO! HATE YOUUU!
tas manlalait ka ng blog. tss! HATE YOUUU!!!

dresstech namin kanina. pagdating ng TEENS C sa stage, sympre kabado muna, pero after a few minutes, ayus na. labo. :)) still dont know the part na FRONT AND CENTER AKO. sheesh pahirapan ito. si teacher jason pa, pahamaaak! oh well :)) wala na akong magagawa. :)) andaming benta moments kanina. trip trip lang kce e. SOBRANG SAYA!.

naiinis ako, END NA NG SUMMER :(.

btw, gagawa ako ng bagong multipy. wala lang akong maisip na ID. help help :D. suggestions please!

hmmmm.. :D :(

2006-05-25T18:39:00.000-07:00

~~random thoughts~~

-- our class, teens C, is really different. i guess i somehow was shocked because 2 years ago, when i enroll in CMT I, it was waaaay different. i guess it's just the fact that we are now ~~TEENS~~. before, you'd know all of your classmates, you'd be comfortable when communicating to each and every one of them. teens c is not like that. BUT, i still love the class! :D

-- before (gradeschool years,, except grade 7), i used to think i was the best. i know, ive got a big ego, and i was pretty ~~mayabang~~ at that. now that i think about it, i was so competitive that i really did my best. i wont let others get ahead of me. i had to show that i can do it. i TRIED. i know that this ego brought me trouble. but, because of it, i DID my best. and it showed. i was very active, i had higher grades!

now that i think about it, i didnt try in the 7th grade. i didnt do what i love. i didnt do my best. i don't think that i need to have that big an ego just to try! it saddens me now, i took the one year for granted. sayang sayang. i guess i also lost confidence in myself. i didnt show who i really am and what i can really do, sayang talaga :(.

-- im afraid to go to school. :(. ayoko na :(.

-- i WAS a bookworm. i used to read ALOT. before, i wouldn't be able to sleep unless i read. BUT NOOOW! i dont read anymore. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!? maybe this is also due to the fact that i don't have any ~~new>~~ books that i like.

-- the other day while i was sitting on my throne and listening to the call of nature, i realized what books i like. i like books that make me cry. i like books when i can feel the writer's/character's pain. i like books about ~~*broken familes*~~

-- we had the last day of our trumpets classes yesterday. im gonna miss teens C. im gonna miss dancing like no one's watching (which i DONT DO AT ALL IN SCHOOL). im gonna miss the non stop libot after classes. im gonna miss our teachers. im gonna miss the new friends ive made from other schools. im gonna miss julie ann samson who is going to NZ!

whooo!!

2006-05-22T02:57:00.000-07:00

shit tong tagboard ko..

dito ako magpopost ng replies,,

ayaw kasi maopen e :))

PRINGLES 18: HAHA! biro nga lang eh. ;) hnd ako magbabago. labo! hahaha!

--mitch, =)) sige lang, loyal ito?! =))

ida: pssst.

--whoi pasaway ka, grounded ka ah

carina: liaaaaaaaaaaaaaang. haha. :D
carina: wla kaya akong sinabing ocge po. kinuha ko lang yung phone sa bata e. =))
carina: oh my goosh. natatakot ako. baka may hidden camera or something yooon. AYY. =))

--yun naman, dami mong tag.. :)) sige na nga,, wla kang sinabe na ocge n nga.. OO NGA NO! :))
whoo, taga AA po ako! =))

mara:ei.. hindi ko makita yung post na sinasabi mo... ung kay DUDE.. roar.. %^&$#@ talaga un!!
mara: wait.. nabasa ko na.. gusto ko din gumawa ng POST!! hehe...

--sis, whoo, nice post, so true

jae: AWWW. yun lang masasabi ko. :)) thanks, liang. mwaah!

--your welcome jae!:))

lyka: too bad. naalis c matt! haha

--shattap :))

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whokey un na yun., harr

TAPOS KO NA ANG WITHOUT SEEING THE DAWN!

hahah!! accomplishment na napakalaki yun. :))
=))

okay, anlabo na, sorry, oti ako ngyn eh :))

showcase on sunday, shet. EWAN KO NA

NAPAKALABONG POST

2006-05-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

"The problem is, I always think I am not good at anything. I may be doing some things but I think I am not good at doing those. I want to find where I am really good at. It may sound awkward and wrong, but I want people to admire me the way I admire others. Haha.Sometimes I am so scared to do things. I'm scared that people might say something not true about myself. I'm scared that people might judge me. I am scared to hear nasty comments from others. I need to be confident. The question is, how?I try to find my confidence in other people whom I admire so that I can be inspired. But it turns out that I feel that I am just me, they're different, I don't possess the qualities that they have, and I can't be like that in the future.You might question "why is she thinking like that?". I think it's because I dream big and I am really sensitive to those stuffs.Haaay. I feel I am just an ordinary person. I WANT to be extra-ordinary, talented, AMAZING. Hahaha. I want people to admire me, I want to do things without hurting others' feelings, I want to make people happy, I want to be the best friend of everyone, I want to be a perfect daughter, I want to be a perfect relative, I want to be a good and perfect disciple of Christ, I want to be PERFECT. Yah, that's what I want to be. I am definitely a dreamer."
-julie ann samson www.chocoleight.blogspot.com

i just stumbled upon jae's blog and i LOVE her post. i didn't know she feels stuff like this.

ito lang masasabi ko sau, jae.
"i admire you. for being a wonderful dancer. for being our secretary. for being YOU."
.....tska mangha ako sa post mo. =))

i love the quote she put in her blog. "behind my smile is something you'll never understand".
i guess this quote applies to me too. pero may slight modification. "behind my smile is something no one will ever understand, sometimes i don't understand it either." wait, tama ba ang grammar? sorry na, mejo nababangag!

i guess no one knows me. i dont know why, but id like to know a person who can know everything that i am feeling. a person that wont argue about MY feelings with me. hayy. impossible dream.

im so sad. natanggal na si matt sa pbb. i dunno. i guess it just saddens me because i KNOW that him staying in the pbb house WAS going to help me. in a way nobody understands.. kahit ung may mga alam.. as the quoute says, you'll never understand. i guess i also was being selfish. i didnt think of matt when i was supporting him. i thought of myself. selfish me.

i bought my school supplies already.. and ive personalized my notebook. there's this picture that symbolizes *HIM* (my ym picture.. THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT OF ALL) my mom wanted to see my notebook. i kept one hand on the picture,, just so she wou;dn't see. I DONT WANT HER TO KNOW. hayy :(.. pero i guess she's see it one day. i miss him. AGAIN. sheesh, kelan ba to matatapos.

WALA PARIN :((

i guess i should give up. :(. i dunno, it hurts but ive got to accepct it. no choice ako.

but ill never stop looking :(

summer classes in ingenium ended yesterday. I WILL MISS THE KIDS :((. here are some pics
that's actually kind of official. they were sold to the parents P25. [and in AA it cost 40!?] sympre I made that. AHY!? see how cuuute the children are! i just wanna take them home! ay labo. im gonna miss them :(

this is a picture of me with two of the kids. the one to the left is maegan. she's pretty shy but i think ive gaind her trust, she's now affectionate towards me. she diesn't smile alot. she may be adjusting. she's so cute no!? the one to the right is with my boyfriend, sean. he has a crux on me! =)). pero honesty oo nga. haha!! *flattered?!* joke :D. he's pretty magulo, and he's been on the quiet chair once. but i still love him. ALOT =))

im gonna miss them alot. i hope i can still visit during the schoolyear. oh how i wish id have siblings. :(

pasukan na,, im scared :(

2006-05-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

dagdag post

kanina nasa foodcourt kami, kumakain. may 2 bata ma lumapit kasama ang ina nila

ina: may extra challenge ang mga batang ito *hanap si carina ng camera =))* kailangan nila kumuha ng mga number ng tao. pede b ung sa inyo?
liang: nd po.
iba: NR
carina: ocge po
*sabay senyas, IBAHIN MO*
carina: *iniba nga*

ANG CREEPY!!!!!! Labo :))

angkyut ng pbb ngayon. haha. SOBRANG KYUT! ambait ng housemates kay jam :D.. angkyutkyut tlga nila!

MATT

pakiboto po si matt para hindi cya maalis next week.

THIS WOULD BE SO INTERESTING

AHHH! IM LOVIN THIS!!

anu kaya manyayari.!?!? hmm

mommy, manood ka =))

*nandito na nanay ko, kelangan ko itago nakasulat =))*
angkyut din nung part na nagraradio sina kim!!!! woo!!

final four:

KIM
MATT
JAM
*diko lam*

labo! in no particular order yan ah :))

whoot.. trumpets day. harr, labo ahh

2006-05-16T05:13:00.000-07:00

ohkeyy, :))

fieldtrip ng mga bata ngayon,, sa world of butterflies.. sinuot ko INGENIUM uniform ;))
bsta fun fun fun un. harr

teka,, bago umalis,, may eksena w/ my boyfriend

liang, teacher anne, teacher mau: BYE SEAN!
sean: bye!
*labas sya ng gate*
liang: *nagbbye sa ibang kids*
sean: *pasok ule ng gate* *to liang* BYE!! *kiss*
*labas ule*

=)) benta talaga yung batang yun! :))

nung isang araw,, circle time *nakaupo mga bata sa sahig at kumakanta/nakikinig sa storya* nagpakandun cya sakin,, tas ayun, kanta kanta..
sean: what a beautiful girl!
*nagulat ako*
liang: what?
sean: nothing, nothing..
*after a while*
sean: what a beautiful girl!

=)) BENTA SAKIN!! =)) pero furness, gwapo un! kung may kapatid ako!! aba!! iloloveteam ko un. AHY!?: =)) 4 yrs old e! =))
peroo magulo cya haha!

sobra, puro bata na ang laman ng aking blogposts e no, sorry na,, aliw na aliw ako e

WALA PARIN!

sabihin nalang nating hindi pinakamasayang class ang trumpets namin kanina. ewan! parang buong kwarto, wala sa mood!! walang pumapasok sa mga utak namin na steps sa 3rd song!! (atleast mga tao sa palibot ko =)) ) ayun, kwentuhan lng with sina jean =))

nilibre ako ni maan kanina, PAMASAHE! :))

malapit na magpasukan :((

ok anlabo na :D

PAYDAY PAYDAY PAYDAY

2006-05-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

OH WHAT A HAPPY DAY!

ahy ang watever nun ah, haha!! anyway,, payday ngayon! YESS!! nakuha ko na ang aking ATM!? :)) na sympre wla pang laman! :)

nagtrabaho ako kanina,, sympre. FUN!!

ang weird tlga ng BOYFRIEND ko! patay na patay sakin! =))

fieldtrip bukas. whoo, excited =))

eeeee! DUWAG!!

2006-05-14T01:23:00.000-07:00

nsa inet caf ako ngayon.. rock island, dun sa marquinton! :)) mga mgulang ko nanonood ng sine,, Mission Impossible Three. HARR!! takot akoo!! =)) action e!!! =)) oo na, duwag na.. =)) eversince naman daati, duwag ako sa movies e, favorite ko nun,, cinderella.. ayoko snow white,, may witch. =)) ayoko sleeping beauty.. =)) kaya nga cinderella e,, para walang witch =)).. nanood din ako dati ng ET. biruin nyo, takot ako dun! =)) sobra, buong time na nsa movie house, nakatakip mata ko =)) oh well, gnyan tlga ang DUWAG! =))

wooo, amboring dito! =))

wala na akong masulat,, WALA PARIN E!!!!!!!!!! :((

bored bored bored bored

2006-05-12T18:14:00.001-07:00

nanonood ako ng prince & me. ito ang nagagawa ng pagkawala ng cable.. na bunga ng bagyo.. na nanggising sakin ng 6:00 dahil sa malakas na hangin... at nagbasa sa kwarto ko,,

HARR! haba nun ah,.,

hindi ako pumasok kahapon,, pinapahinga ako ng nanay ko, msma kce pkiramdam ko kgbi,, ean tuloy,, bored ako kahapon.

harr..

WALA PARIN!!!!!!! :((

bored bored bored bored

2006-05-12T18:14:00.000-07:00

topak

2006-05-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

ano nangyayari sakin ngayon?! naoorasan ko na lagi magpost!!!!!!!! sobra, haha,, 3rd post for the day, kung tutuusin, maikli lang ung mga posts ko e, labo :D

hindi parin nageemail!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pamatay talaga ang pagiintay, erghh.. as if may darating,. harr!!

wala akong makwento. sobra, laki ng problema ko eh, haha.

nanood ako ng PBB. yun naman eh, aliw na aliw na ako dun.. harr :D nanay ko nga eh, nanonood din, fairness, mangha ako kay kim, dun sa rope challenge!!!!!! galing nea!! :))

nakakaaliw kami ng nanay ko. [labo, naaliw sa sariling nanay] :)). pag may gusto ako na ayaw nea ako payagan. as in gimmick gimmick, talaga namang valid ung mga rason nea, pero kaya ko dalahin sa negotiation. tas pinagagawa nya lang ako ng essay ukol sa side ko, tas magrereply cya! HAHA! naaliw ako, galing ng nanay ko pumaraan! :)) tas after nugn pinakaexcercise, mas nagkakaunawaan kami ng nanay ko.. odba, works both ways! :D

kung tutuusin, mganda ang relationship namin ng nanay ko, open ako sakanya, kahit papano. pero pagdating sa usapang ***, wala na, tahimik ako. sympre, sabi nga ng aming guidance counselor ay "wag mo na sabihin sa nanay mo, magaalala lang yun" so oo nga, hindi ko sinasabi. labo. sa bahay namin, simple lang ang rules sa pakikitungo sa nanay,, basta may respeto,, ok na. so as long as respectful ang pagkakasabi ko, at di ako sobrang kulit pag badtrip cya, ok lang ang mundo sa bahay namin. nakakaintindi naman si mommy e, kelangan mo lang tlga iexplain ang point of view mo. haha!!swerte ako no! :D ilovemymommmmmyyyy!!

as for my dad, haha. diff story. un naman ang hindi swerte. haha! dont get me wrong. ilovemypapa =)) un naman, hindi bagay =))

*shut up liang. shit, hate this! watever mo!!!!!!! pasimple!)

anyway, haha

sa pangatlo nga namang post, ano pa ba masasabi ko? haha.

ohwell, gonna end this here. :D. lrt ule bkas ppntang shang, mageenjoy muna sa mga bata,,, SANA, HINDI AKO IHIAN! *crosses fingers*. pero ok lang. part of being with kids right? parang mga 6 years na rin ako naggaganto, helping in the classroom and all, pero now thinking about it, wala akong tulong dati!! mga 7 ako nun, tas mga ksma ko, 3.. hindi pa ako nagbubuhat ng bata, hindi ako nagpapabanyo, may favoritism ako!!!! talk about bad ate :)).. watddyuexpect from an only child ate wannabe!? =)) oh well,, past is past. oo, nagpapabanyo na ako ngayon. pero di ko pa naexperience na tatae yung bata.. =)) hanggang ihi palang.. =)) pati change ng diaperss!! di ko pa natrtry! haha. d rn ako excited dun :))

magfiefieldtrip sila sa butterfy house ng marikina! haha! yung finieldtripan ng GRADE 6!! yun naman eh, parinig :D. furness, d pa ako nakakapasok dun. kung tutuusin, 1st time ko ren :)).. cameraa!! kelangan yan bukas!! sa kakyutan pa naman ng mga bataa!! magpopost ako ng pics :D balang araw. haha!! proud ate, yun naman.. sa lagay na yan, hindi ko tlga kapatid un eh, ano pa kaya kung may baby sis/bro ako.?! haha. proud ate na proud ate talaga!!

ang haba ng ending ng post na to.

ayun na,

THE END. harhar

2006-05-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

nilagyan ko nanaman ng song itong blog kong ito,

ito NANAMAN,, ito PARIN.,,

iloveit! journey to the paaaaaaaast!!

home, love, family, I WOULD NEVER BE COMPLETE UNTIL I FIND YOU!!!

ofcourse i feel bad that he doesn't love me, who wouldn't?! ugh, i hate this.

tama na drama, AYOKO NA SIYANG ISIPIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ergherghergh

when i open my email, i always check if he emailed me first, heck, he won't. why am i expecting.

2006-05-10T02:25:00.000-07:00

whootwhoot, saya maging part ng school :D! ingenium to ah,

alam kong wala itong interest sa inyo, pero hell, gusto ko isulat dito eh :)) labo . :D

kanina akoy sumama nanaman sa fun with phonics class. ANGKYUT NG MGA BATAA!! as in wlang tatalo! :D. si maegan na hindi ngumungiti, sumasama na saking ngayon. si kiko na speech delay, timaan si aiden na matapang gamit ang PENCIL, nagsugat. si sam, iyak parin. si gideon NA BABY NA BABY, sobrang cute pero wlang pakialam sa mundo,. si sean ang aking boyfriend, ayun, kabit parin ng kabit sakin :))

HINDI AKO NAIHIAN NGAYON whoo!! achievement :)) (naihian ako kahapon eh :)) )

so kahapon,. trumpets.. LRT nnmn, nkta ko si maan sa cubao, pero nauna na ako. gala muna kami sa shang,, kasama sina max, yzza iana at aien. ayun, saya saya :D. pumasok na sa trumpets. ayun, syempre, sayaw, duh, haha, nanood kami ng aquamarine. maganda cya,

labo nun, walang ganang magpost.. hayy.. oh well, may bukas pa :))

2006-05-07T04:05:00.000-07:00

Prove pare! Prove!
You're not a snowman unless you're made of snow.You're not a fruit unless you have seeds.You're not a ball unless you're round.You're not an athlete until you have a sport.You're not a lawyer until you've done a case.You're not a politician until you win for a position.You're not God unless you've done what He's done, and is doing what He's doing.You're not smart unless you have the grades.You're not rich unless you have the money.You're not poor unless you're suffering.You're not tough unless you've been in a fistfight.You're not good unless you've done something good, or avoided something bad.You haven't helped unless you've given something. The point here is this: you're never something unless you can prove it. Something has to point to what you are. Even a fact has to be proven true.That's just the way it is. Yes, it would have been easier if we didn't have to prove anything, if we didn't have to show anyone something that will make them nod in approval, if we didn't have to try. But when that long-awaited moment comes, what will we all be? Empty, with nothing to work for. We won't even have to do our best, but we'll be empty.Thank God that we have to prove, for we work harder for what we want to achieve, end up helping more people along the way, and achieve something greater than what we really deserve.

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You know him. The childish little weirdo in class. The one who never talks to you. The one who has his own world he does not want to share with you. The one who's not good in sports, nor in socializing. He's the totally uncool person you wouldn't want to be seen with. He dresses weirdly, speaks weirdly, walks weirdly... you do the imagining, You know him, but you just don't want to be near him.He's never smoked. He never goes to parties. He can't throw a punch right. He doesn't look pleasant. He makes you giggle when you notice him. He suffers from poor health.How do you treat him?You greet him daily with that pleasant smile of yours. You talk to him like he was family. You try to make him tell stories about his life, his past girlfriends, possibly, and his family. You compliment him for being cool. You offer your help whenever he's down.But when he's not around, you make him the laughing stock of every discussion. You point out his mistakes based on his stories. You give him nicknames that are supposedly appropriate for his personality. You promise everyone that never will you be like him. You tease anyone who comes near him by saying, "Uuy, he found a bestfriend.." You do many other things I may not be able to imagine.How does he treat you? He treats you well. You just haven't noticed it.He treats you well, but do not assume that he doesn't know what you've been doing. He knows, and he is bothered by the fact. It forces him to stay alone. It keeps him from being the person he is, because he does not want to be treated badly. It makes him "weirder," by your standard, which causes you to make fun of him even more.How can you possibly do such a thing? I know for a fact that many times you have "admitted" being weird, especially to the opposite sex. Nobody rejects you for being the weird person you claim to be.Yes, some people may hate you, but they never do what you do to that person you see differently.All people are different. You have to accept that fact. And because all people are different, you don't have to make a big deal out of your petty little weird friend. Someone might actually be finding you a little too different too, but that's not an excuse for you to keep doing what you're doing.All people are different, but no one person is more different. That's what you have to learn.

-mikee lee.

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gosh, ang ganda. sinend lang sakin yan ni camla eh, ANGGALING NO!? shit, mangha ako sa sulat. at natatamaan din ako haha. ewan! tinatamad na ako magpost, 3rd post ko na nga naman ito :))

ohmy!

2006-05-07T03:20:00.000-07:00

papa,

thank you for the gift you sent me! i wear it all the time.

liang

btw, sorry for the late message. :D

dahil sa sobrang pangungulit ng nanay ko, ito na, isesend ko na sa tatay ko.uhh, scary.

oo, papa ang tawag ko sa aking daddy, tawag? wtf!? ergh, tawag sa email. as if tinatawag ko cya, ergh

kinakabahan ako isend ito. ano kaya iisipin nya.

alam kong maikli, pero ano pa ba ang gusto niyang sabihin ko??? as if may masasabi ako sa kanya.!!

pero di ba dapat may kahit konting kwento man lang?

e ano naman ikwekwento ko!?

alam kong mejo blanko ang hulihan, wla man lang na "* **** *"

lagyan ko kaya?

totoo naman eh.

e bakit, sya ba naglalagay ng gnun!?

hindi naman ah!

edi ako ren hindi.

right.??

ugh, hate this,

pano kung hindi siya magreply??

ano ba naman ineexpect ko?

magrereply siya?!

dapat hindi ko yun iexppect.

mabibigo lang nanaman ako,

pero sympre hindi ren mawawala ang feeling na binubuksan ang email at inaasahang may sulat cya.

tas wla naman

ERGGHHH!!

hate this.

oh gosh, nasend ko na.

NASEND KO NA!

DAPAT HINDI KO PA SINEND! arghh!!

shit,hindi ako mapapatahimik nito. grrr.

----sorry, wlaa akong mapaglabasan ng emosyon ngayon,. sinulat ko nalang dito. harr :D

nature's spa.

2006-05-06T20:00:00.000-07:00

yesterday, we went to liliw in laguna. Liliw is a resort which hosts one of the streams of laguna. IT is open for swimming and picnics.

IT is actually an outing for the teachers of our school, ingenium. We left the school at 5:30. pahirapan gumising 'to! and of course I slept in the car :D. When we got to the resort we had to walk down to the tabing ilog. And we had many things with us. We brought ALOT of food!!

We swam. The water was so clear and cold!! May waterfals dun sa batis/ilog. Being under the waterfalls felt so good!! It was comprised of many small waterfalls because the river/stream was going downhill. The river/stream floor was ofcourse, rocky and uneven. that's why i have 2 bruises and (naputol ung isa kong kuko, sa gitna, ha,).

After liliw, we went to Majayjay. Another waterfall resort/picnic area. On the way there, we passed barrios where people lived. Once, we saw a guy in the middle of the street. on one hand was a kid, on the other, a KNIFE. shet takot na takot kami!! nakatago lang ung mukha ko eh!!!! buti naman walang nangyari.. atleast di namin nakit, shet,, wawa ung bata :(.

Majayjay was WONDERFUL! it was a bigger waterfall than liliw. we just made tampisaw and took pictures and left. harhar, sayang, i wanna go back :P.

nakauwi kami, 12 na, HINDI KO NAPANOOD ANG EVICTION NIGHT NG PBB!! nakakaiinis!! kwentuhan nu nga ako.

oo, sumusubaybay na ako sa pbb. sorry na, naaliw ako. oo, jologs na :))

habang post. bago to ah. haha

2006-05-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

"on the outside, i look like a person who worries about nothing, who's carefree and has nothing to be serious about. 'cause frankly, i am NOT a serious person (when i relate to others). Yes, i am kengkoy.. yes, makulit ako at galawgaw. but honestly, deep inside, i am not. im not happy. i am serious. i have problems. and my worries never fail to haunt me. this side of me only shows to SOME of my closest friends. and ~~only a few~~ none of them know the ~~real~~ me. heck, i don't know myself either. i guess im still in the process of knowing myself. Who I really am,, who I want myself to be, and how to get there. "im me, that's all i can be."

i love to be with people. knowing them make me know myself more. i LOVE my friends. and yeah, i have alot of fun with them. i hate seeing them cry *basta if you need a shoulder to cry on,, libre ung shoulder ko* i love company. when i am with my friends non-stop ang kwentuhan namin minsan seryosohan *rarely*, minsan naman walang kwentang topic .. but after all the laugter. when i ~~suddenly~~ become quiet. pagtapos na nung fun-filled day, i think. i think about everything how i miss the past,, how ~~happy~~ annoyed i am with the present,, how i dread the future. marami narin akong napagdaanan, maraming beses na ako umiyak. maraming beses na ako nasaktan. nahulog,, natapaktapakan.. but i never fail to try again. *i guess* hindi nga ba "failing is not in falling down,, its in not getting up at all" [upon further thinking about this line,, i feel na patayo palang ako,, im getting up na,, tapos may tutulak ulet sakin, at maaapakan muli ako] i don't know why. but im in the process of finding out. i think about my friends. para bang nagsosort ako sa utak ko. which is true, which is ~~false~~ untrue. sobra, lahat na pinagisipan eh. haha

basically, im me,, a different me on the outside, a different me on the inside. pero syempre may connection din yun. labo.

okay, kakaiba ang profile ko ngayon. seryoso. *gosh liang, is that you!?* haha. hindi talaga kasi ako ganto ka emosyonal para sa ibang tao, ngayon ko lang to nasulat nang ganito. harhar. sobra, nakakapanibago nga eh. oh well. basically, *parang ilang beses ko na ginamit yung word na yun* i am a fun loving person, outgoing yet ~~shy~~ at times. a bit ~~sentimental~~ i love hanging out and being ~~happy~~ i am in the process of knowing myself.. healing, letting go,, and moving on.

wag nyo na basahin yun, masyadong drama eh, haha. hindi ako ganyan,, seryoso,, tinamaan lang ako ng pagiisip nung time na yun, harhar. :D "

yan ang aking LUMANG i repeat, LUMANG profile ko.haha, in other words,, papalitan ko na. pero di ko rencompletely matanggal yung profile ko, first time lang kasi lumabas ng ganto ang pakiramdam ko sa sarili, on second thought,, gusto ko na ierase, haha, labo :D

I had a milestone the other day. (english mode. haha) i was able to ride the LRT by myself *sorry na, ngayon lang ako tinuruan eh, at ngayon lang ako nagkalakas ng loob* i know its kinda shallow, but heck, i am proud. haha. so i was brought to the Santolan LRT station. unfortunately, that was the faithful day the machines chose to be broken. (labo) the machines didn't accept bills! (laki ng problema ko eh. haha!) when i got inside the LRT, a guy *invited* me to sit in a sort of empty seat beside him (ako kasi yung nauna na tumayo doon. tas may onting space pa ssa tabi nea,, pede pa ako sana sumiksik.) i didn't *accept his offer* natakot ako eh. i got to gateway. them i transferred to farmers and LINED UP the VERY long line to get the ticket. It was also awfully hot there :P. I rode the MRT, and it was so crowded. good thing i was able to go out (ergh, OA!?). and i got to shang :D

I had trumpets. Oh GOsh, in one part of the dance im front and center. No, I am not used to that due to my height and lack of skill and talent (harhar :P). Hell, I was simply humiliating myself. but, heck, im used to it, (un naman. haha!!) *ang arte ko talaga magingles. with the o gosh and the hell. labo :D*

Summer Classes started in our school, Ingenium, yesterday. It is tradition that every year I "assist" in the Fun with Phonics class. But last year, I was too lazy to wake up early. I wasn't able to join. I did feel a bit awkward at the beginning because I didn't help out last year. But my *ate* instincts soon awakened and I'm loving the children so much!!! Yeah, I love kids.. when they're still very young.. preschool na preschool talaga. The youngest in the class is Gideon only 2 years and 2 months old. Surprisingly, he is independent,, AND THE CUTEST THING.

Yesterday's class was a normal 1st day of school. but today, there were some *problems*. there was this one boy, sam,, who had an asthma attack, kawawa talaga siya tingnan.. and he didn't want to be left. he was a big boy. I CANNOT CARRY him. he was that big. and he just held on to whoever *adult* he could hang on too, and yeah,, i had a turn to try to comfort him. gosh, bigat nea talaga. nakakandong cya sakin taas umiiyak pa. tas nakayakap. iniiit!! haha. good thing his parents picked him up early. but that was just about 30 mins before the class was supposed to end anyway.

There's this other boy, Sean. Im amused with his antics. Even though he sort of *hit* one of his classmates. harr. he's one of the children who follows me around. AND HE'S SO CUTE! aliw talaga working with kids (conyo nun ah). Sean never fails to say goodbye to me. BEfore he leaves the classroom, he hugs me and says "'i'll come back tomorrow!"

Oh how I wish I have a sibling. shoot, pagate mode nga naman ako.

I now regret the fact that I missed the classes last year. I missed the kids. Pero in fairness, ngayon kasi may sweldo na ako. haha!!! 35 per hour. un naman eh. :))

Over time ako ngayon. I stayed till 5.. WAIT, DI AKO NAKASULAT SA TIME CARD KO! uh oh,. haha.

excited na ako magtrumpets sa tuesday, kahit mukha nanaman akong tanga dun. usual. ok lang. haha. dba nga. WALANG PAKI ALAMANAN! haha. masaya lang talaga:D

burarar.

2006-05-03T08:31:00.000-07:00

harr! naala ko ang isa sa aking past expressions. haha!!! burarar, mixture yan ng bwisit at rarr. haha!!! ang topak last year eh.

may dinagdag ako mga thingies galing sa hosted-scripts.com. ung ym thing, ung ip logger at yung online users blah. nakakainis ung online users!! napapawonder tuloy ako kung sino nagvieview ng blog ko! haha. nd pa msydo effective ang ip logger thingie ko, haha, kakalagay lang eh, labo.

whootwhoot, trumpets na bukas.. yii, excited. haha. pero kinakabahan ako, na postpone ang aking LRT adventure eh,, bukas na, haha! un naman, "am i afraid of excited?" :)) yun naman, naalala ko lang haha.!

okay palabo ng palabo ang aking post.

sorry na, tinotopak nanaman ako eh :))

whoot whoot. :D

2006-05-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

Im getting used to saying the expression "whoot whoot". I dont know why. harhar

AS YOU CAN SEE, im trying to speak in straight eanglish at the moment, and it is difficult.

When i am writing serious stuff for school or when im in a bad mood, i find it easier to write in english. But, I am not in a bad mood today. haha.

I went to shang for our trumpets earlier. I was supposed to ride the LRT by myself. Mixed feelings of excitement and fear clouded my mind. Our driver was supposed to fetch me after classes. BUT,, he DIDN'T know where shang was. My mom told me that i have to be driven to shang,, so that he'll see where that is,, and he can fetch me. Tallk about killjoy. hmmph.

Yeah, I was the one who instructed him how to get there. urgh. annoying.

(shoot nahalata ko,, pagnagiingles ako,, ang arte ng pagkakasulat ko. nakakainis!)

trumpets was fun. i guess,, but i was not in a good mood, don't ask me why. haha :D.

nung magisa nalang ako (tagalog na, totoong kwento eh,,) tumambay ako sa powerbooks (lagi naman dun eh).. at nagbasa,,, PAGLABAS ko, syempre daraan ng ice monster.. may nakita akong guy,, AKALA KO SIYA,, height kkasi tas figure.. tas ung buhok.. edi na crurious ako... NAGTHUMP yung puso ko,,, KINILIG ako,, (oo, marunong na ako kiligin :D).. pag tingin nea,,,, HINDI PALA SIYA YUN.. AMPANGIT NEA! HAAHHA!! inis na inis ako oh, haha!!

NAG DI DIET NA AKO!: imbis na coke..... MANGO SHAKE!! haha,, yun naman.. :))

harhar. topak ko umiiral. AT AKO'Y KINIKILIG. sorry na, 1st time,, oo,, dalaga na ako. HAHAHA!!

to you,, alam kong alam mo na na ikaw ang aking itinutukoy. HAHA! oo na, madrama na,, SORRY NA! emote ako nun eh,, pero totoo talaga yun,, swear :D

tinotopak ako.

2006-05-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

sige, so mejo emote ako the previous days,, SORRY na. labo. haha.

oo, tinotopak ako ngayon. nahihigh nanaman,, sayang di ol si mitch (harhar! special mention ka oh,) siya kinukulit ko pagnahihigh ako eh,,. laboo

today, wlang nangyari,, computer computer computer.. triny ayusin ni ninong ung Wi Fi namin, hindi gumana, kaya habang inaayos nea,, NAGING VAIN AKO.. oh yess, bagong hobby,, mei sondtrack na ako,, 1st album entitled "topak" lalabas na sa mga tindahan. harhar!!!!

so ayun ang ginawa ko ngayong araw. haha!! inaayos ko rin ung files ko sa aking computer.. anlabo kasi e.. andaming copies,, pareparehas lang naman,, tapos kung anu-ano yung file name,, kaya yun, inayos ko,, LABO.. haha. meron akong files for every person. as in lahat ng pics ng taong yun nandun. oo, nagpapakahirap ako.. on second thought,, ierase ko na kaya,, pero wag. pinaghirapan din yun .HAHA labo.

may plano nanaman akong palitan profile ko,, hindi exactly palitan,, dagdagan lang.. baka akalain ninyo emotera ako (as if hindi) eee, harhar.. kasi parang ang boring ko tingnan dun.. pero as i wrote there,, sa sarili ko lang yun,, pag sa ibang tao,, at pag normal ang araw (pag wala ako at hindi ako dinidismi, HAHA) hindi ako emote,, sa bahay lang,, pag gabi,, laboo.. so,, iibahin ko yun, YAKK!! :)) ngayon lang yun eh,, kasi nga,, daming iniisip,, pero hindi na talaga,, LABO!! i gotta learn to just drift with the waves.. harhar.. life will go on, ganun lang talaga,, gotta take life one step at a time,, and yah know,, LIVE LIFE..

okay, ang oti na ng post ko,, kung san san na napadpad.. harhar!!

MAGLLRT AKO BUKAS MAGISA (sorry na,, 1st time.) yakk, kinakabahan ako.. KAYA KO TO. weh. haha..

whoot excited/nervous na ako. haha..

gosh, lakas talaga ng tama ko ngayon.. (lagi naman.. except nga pag dinidismi ako. haha!!!!!).

all theunwanted thoughts.

2006-04-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

shit ive been thinking. ALOT. grabe dinudumog na utak ko ng pagiisip. nakakainis na.

profile ko iniba ko na,, halata na hindi masaya eh no.

i swear. ito ang week of thinking ko. buti nga nalabas ko ren eh. nasabi ko kay camla nung tuesday after trumpets. nakaupo lang kami sa starbucks at nasabi ko. syempre hindi lahat,, pero atleast may nasabi ako.

oo na, ako'y umaamin na,, nagtrutrumpets ako. alam kong kahiya hiya ito,, dahil wala akong kwentang sumayaw. kapal nga ng mukha ko eh. pero as camla says. "WALANG PAKIALAMANAN!"

to you: im sorry binabaan kita ng phone, technically hindi naman pero gets,, ayaw kitang kausapin. naiinis lang talaga ako. ewan ko na, pagkatapos mo ba naman ako tapak tapakan expected mo sa isang "SORRY" okay na? and dude. hindi naman sincere yung sorry mo e. ganyan ka naman eh. ewan ko sayo!

to another you: naiinis na talaga kami sayo. sinira mo lang naman pangalan namin sa trumpets. sorry na, pero gets. pahamak ka. you have to see other's side. hindi lang ikaw yung may poimt. we're gonna talk to you about it on tuesday. sana lang maintindihan mo.

ang malas ko nung thursday. kasi nga trumpets. E MERON AKo. tapos ANSAKIT NG PUSON KO! e rock n roll pa ang sayaw namin nun. tatalon talon pa ako. grr.

nagcocommute na ako ngayon. LRT.. tinuruan ako since this week,, kasama katulong.. next week daw,, magisa na ako. pray for me. haha.

i miss you. sayang talaga yung friendship natin.. dude, mga 4 years na rin yun, and *snap* wala na. sorry, napahirapan ko buhay mo last year. pero i still keep wondering until now. "ano kaya kung bestfriend ko parin si _____ hanggang ngayon. i still love you. and im happy na magkaibigan na ulet tau ngayon. though sympre,, not as close.

tammo, andaming nasa utak ko.

AMBILIS NG PANAHON. AMBILIS NG SUMMER. nageenjoy kasi ako sa trumpets eh. nakakainis, may na.

=)

2006-04-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

si camla nagsusulat:

hahaha. we like had trumpets a while a ago. dumance kami!! hirap naman the steps! we like can't alala them. then we also picture each other's faces. twas super saya. ohmygollygoshgoshgosh. like, sobrang fun! then liang naman, so agaw eksena. the tummy of her was super ouch daw. whooo. if i know, she just wants to go like in the washroom. ugh, please lang huh. not to change eeeeeeeeeek, but to you know. to do something. hahaha! like give birth to something eeeeek----weird. hahahaha! *evil laugh* umeat din kami sa ice monster. like it was super yummy. ohmy! sarap, yummy! yeeeeeeeeeerk. ayoko na nga. ampangit. hahaha!

whew

2006-04-15T02:12:00.000-07:00

last time ko nang makakapaginternet for ONE WHOLE WEEK. gosh. haha. pero okay lang,, i'll be ENJOYING in singapore w/ my friends, (family friends yan ha.). sooo excited. malas lang yung sa thurs, catan, camla, jae, jean, maan, carina, stacey. gets nu ean. haha!!

IM SO EXCITEDD!! haha..

note to toot: (mikee gets mo ean. haha) "naguiguilty na talaga ako na hindi kita nirereplyan pagkatapos mo magsorry, at di naren nman kita makakatext all week. ewan ko. just can't forget how bad you make me feel. YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD. heck. sana next week, magkaayos tayo. pagsinabi mong "okay lang" bahala ka na sa buhay mo.. i know u're not aware but IT MAKES ME FEEL BAD. hayy. para kasing wala kang paki. :'(. ayokong mawala ang isa sa mga pinakamatalik kong kaibigan.. pero sorry.. nahuhurt lang talaga ako. sana magkatinuan na tayo :("

woah!! drama!! kagabi ren!! SOBRANG DRAMA!! salamat ulet, mikee. haha!!

goodbye blog!!!! see you next week!! hahaha! :D

para sa mundong pilipinas (watdaheck. ito nanaman ako.): MAGPAKASAYA KAYO!! balitaan nu nalang ako. haha..

shit ka.

2006-04-14T07:53:00.000-07:00

ano ba?! hindi mo ba iniisip ang nararamdaman ng iba!? pinaplastik mo lang ba ako o ano!? kasi naman eh, everytime nalang pinararamdam mo sakin na wala kang pakialam. tinuturi pa naman kitang isa sa pinakamatalik kong kaibigan. pinagloloko mo lang ba ako!? para nanaman akong inapak apakan sau eh!! pede ba!? sobrang mahal kita at trinetreasure kitang kebigan. tapos EVERYTIME nalang!! :((. nagpapanggap ka pang galit tapos joke joke lang pala!!!! ok lang sana kung katulad ka ni ida, na pag naggagalit-galitan, dahil sa inasar siya o something. E WALA NAMAN AKONG GINAGAWA SAYO AH!!!! tpos sasabihin mo na isa ako sa special friends mo. SHUT UP!! nakakaasar ka na talaga ha. di mo iniisip yung nararamdaman ng iba. bwisit ka!!!

alam kong hindi mo 'to mababasa.. at kung mabasa mo man,, reaction mo "okay".. JUST SHOWS KUNG GANO KABAIT KANG KAIBIGAN. WALA KANG PAKIALAM! wala kang pakialam na nasasaktan na ako sa ginagawa mo!! ginagamit mo lang ako eh! ur nothing but an insensitive jerk!!! tapos ngyn magtatanung ka kung galit ako. SHUT UP!!!

eawn ko, u still mean alot to me.. kahit anong gawin mo. nahuhurt lang ako. that's all..

NAGSOSORRY KA NGAYON!? di mo ba inaakala kung gano ako naaapektuhan sa ginagawa mo!?!?!?! :((

sorry,, just had to post this, wala akong malabasan ng galit eh.. di pa nagrereply si mikee. haha.

btw, salamat mikee!! sobrang nakakatulong ka. :D

2006-04-08T06:50:00.000-07:00

SOBRANG SAYAA!!!

nung thursday,, paktpos ngshang ko, diretso ako kina maeca.. SABI NEA KASI 5 EH!! TAPOS SI BEA 9 NA DUMATING!? haha,, un naman ang angal eh :)) hahaha!!

nanood kami ng PBB 1, freaky friday at teenage drama queen dun,, un naman eh.. nagpaturo kami ni bea maggitara,, kaya naman di kami nakapanood ng matino.. haha.. trip nga namin eh,, habang PBB, nagpicture kami sa harap ng tv hbang nandun ung mukha ng housemates,, as in kinikiss si uma,, si say!! hahaha.. sobra pichoor moments kami..

natulog kami, 1 na.. kasi inintay pa namin si mara [na nde ren naman pumunta].. 12 palang [ata], nahiga na kami.. 'tas kwentuhan ng walang katapusan.. nagcocode name nga kami ni maeca eh,, ung last year pa.. wawang bea,, d cya mkacconnect. haha

nagising kami ng 5 am. ayos no,, ang aga.. sasabay lang kce kami sa dad ni maeca.. hinatid kami sa bahay nila mia.. E WALA UNG SUSI NG GATE.. nasa labas lang kami.. nadala ata ni tita leah (mom ni mia) yung susi.. NAGAKYATBAHAY kami. ahaha!! ang saya kayaa!! dun pa sa mataas na gate ha. ayun,, dun lang kami kina mia..

naligo kami tapos umalis na papuntang sta. lu.. bumilikami ng P99 na flipflops. haha.. kumain nren kme dun ng lunch.

from there nagABS na kami.. nung pagdating namin dun,, nasa simbahan pa si tita ana (mom ni maeca).. dun muna kami sa cafe na pinamumunuan (ata) ng tita ni maeca.. sarap nung kinain namin!! haha.. pumunta na kami sa office ni tita ana.. ung office nea mei view ng PBB house.. tapos NAKAPASOK KAMI SA PBB HOUSE!! aliw nga eh.. kasi, may mga tao sa labas na nagpapapicture sa harap ng bahay ni kuya, tpos kami dirediretso sa loob, prang sila.. ":O!" haha.. nung nandun kami,, nirerenovate yung place.. kaya hindi masyadong maayos.. asteeg yung controll room pati yung toothpick thingie. haha

pumasok din kami sa set ng GAMEKNB. ang aliw kaya ng set nea!! ung sensor thingie!! pinaglalaruan namin :D.. sumilip kami sa wowowee.. nung time nayun may show.. sobrang bilis lang kami dun..

kumain kami ng pizza [eon namn eh, haba ng sinabi ko!]

pumunta na kami sa lil big star.. like all the other nanonood, nagintay kami sa labas.. e mejo marami nang nauna samin dun.. so pimwesto kami sa side.. si tita ana pumasok na sa loob.. may girl dun na sinabi "pimila nga kayo.. kanina pa kami nandito eh" so prang kami "ergh.. san b kami ppnta e wala p nmng pmpsok,, kahit magpahuli kami, mei RESERVED seating kami noh" pero sympre d namin sinabi yun. haha.. labo.. so yun nakapasok na kami sa studio ng LBS..

ung seats namin,, 2nd row. un naman eh, nasa likod pa namin ung gurl from the line,, yung sobrang kinaasaran namin :D.. bwisit talaga siya!!! kay contestant cya nagroroot eh [contestant yung name yung isa sa mga grand finalists na kasama niya.] tpos parang siya "wag kayong pumalakpak!!! KAY CONTESTANT LANG!!" prang shet! ang sore loosers nu!! tpos may time na pagktpos magpresent ni contestant, umalis ba naman sila!! as in mga 6 sila.. grr.. BUTI NGA!! hindi biggest star si contestant!! UMIYAK PA SIYA!! beh!

may isa pang guy dun na kinaasaran namin.. kasi naman,, SOBRANG BASTOS.. sabihan ba daw ba si sam ng "you go, GIRL!" si charisse ng "diba galing kang payatas?" BASTOS NYA!!! at asar na asar na sa kanya yung lahat ng tao dun!! kce namn eh!! lalo na yung mga finalists!!! grr nea kce tlga.. may time na habang naguusap ung judges, pinapunta backstage yung mga finalists.. tapos nakakaaliw sila pakinggan.. si makisig, nagpapatawa.. si gian, nagpaka big brother.. pinapapasok nea sa confession room yung lalaking maingay.. si sam, nagbebeatbox. galing nea nga eh..

ANG CUTE NI MAKISIG AT SAM!!

sa totoo lang, inexpect ko na si gian mananalo, kahit maka SAM ako.. kasi magaling tlga siya.. si sam naman kaya siya nanalo kasi marami siyang supporters at magaling sya sumayaw.. oh well..
sana nanalo si MAKISIG. sobrang cute na cute ako sknea.. sayang lang.. magaling tlga ung rhap eh..

dpat nagstay pa kami after nun,, kce klala ni tita ana ung mom ni sam.. pero, kinailangan na namin umalis.. next time daw.. eee!! excited na ako. haha..

tingnan nyo nalang blog ni maeca for ~~more~~ details.. haha.. www.wapakk.blogspot.com

nung sunday,, nagsleepover kami kina mia. SOBRANG SAYA!! nagpakabta kami,, lumamon, at nagkwentuhan.. mas nakilala ko silang lahat.. oh well.. im gonna miss mia. ALOT.. hay kaps,, kelangan tayo magkitakita this summer.. mamimiss tlga kita. :((

sobra,, 4 day na sunodsunod ako sa bahay nila mia. haha!!

saya saya ko ngayon,, puno ng social life (?) haha.. tammo,,
wednesday:RP w/ iris cheska aien sheen
thursday: shang, sleepover at maeca's
friday: ABS-CBN trip.
saturday: went hom from mia's (1am na yun)
sunday: went back to mia's, sleepover
monday: went home from mia's (gami nren un)
tuesday: shang again..

steeg noh!? saya saya.. parating na si catan.. pupunta na kaming shaang! :)) excited na tlga ako!! :D

2006-04-05T18:24:00.000-07:00

woah. long time no post.. haha.

last week,, SOBRAAAAAAAANG BORRRRIIIING!! tv, comp, comp, read, eat, read, watch, play, sleep.. PAULIT- ULIT LANG!!

this week,, dami kong ginagawa!!! mei trabaho na kce ako eh... employed ng aking nanay.. sobrang tinatake up ung time ko.. HAHA.. pero maunlad ang labasan ngayon! haha

monday: pumunta ako sa party ni mia, maeca at julia.. SOBRANG SAYA!! sigawan kami ohh.. dun sa bubong nila!! tapos ung trip namin sa isang tao.. WALANG TATALO! hahahha!! nagkwentuhan at nagtawanan at nagsigawan at nagkantahan kami hnggang hating gabi.. actually sila, nauna ako umuwi eh :(.

tuesday: nagiisang araw na wlang ginawa :)) ata. wait.. may ginawa nga ba ako!? wala. ATA. haha

wednesday/kahapon: nagRP kami.. aien, cheska and i-ris.. nanood kami ng sine.. yun lang. haha! pero masaya.. nag footbridge kami papuntang mcdo. benta si cheska!! takot na takot!! haha :P.. pumunta kami sa bdae ni ayna.. benta ren ung bdae party nya.. childrens party kce. haha! benta ung sa games part.. labo.. after nun, balik kaming RP.. lakad ule.. this time, wla na si cheska, kasama na si sheen. e nung time na yun, ,madilim na. haha labo.. RP nmen, studio pic. tpos umalis n kme.. sabay sakin pauwi si sheen, si aien naman, angtagal ng sundo. kya sa bahay ko nalang siya nagpasundo.. dpa nga nmen nkukuha ung studiopic nmen eh.. si aien ata kukuha today.. bbgay nea sa sunday.. HAHA mga plano eh

sched:
thursday: aalis ng 12:30, pashang
5:00, ppnta kay Kay.. [aliw kay kay] sleepover dun..
friday: manonood ng Lil Big Star ksma sina Kay. hahahaha!!
saturday: libre ako. hahaha!!
sunday: sleepover kina mia..

OH DIBA! BUSY! hahahah.. excited na ako sa laaaaaaaahaaaat nun! :D..

tanginang grades yan

2006-04-01T03:01:00.000-08:00

woo!! FIRST TIME KO BUMAGSAk! as in SIXTY-EIGHT!!!! 68

whooo!! dko 'to take.. ibang level ito!? SA BUONG GRADESCHOOL LIFE KO.... GRADE 1-7.. PINAKAMABABA KO, 78.. PASSING PA EH... AT NGAYONG GRADE 7 AKO.. AT GRADUATING (grumaduate na).. NAGKA 68 AKO.. KAYA NAMAN.. HINDI AKO NAHONORS.. FOURTH QUARTER PA AHH!! kung kelan pinaghirapan ko na ang honors.. BIGLA AKONG NAGKA68!

subject: HELE

tae!!! 82 ako sa card.. parang pinaghirapan (at nagawa) kong 87 ang LAHAT ng grades ko.. tpos fourth quarter.. non aca.. EIGHT-TWO.. TANGINA. kaya pala di ako nakahonors eh!!

sabi ni miss dolly.. 30 minutes daw ako pinagusapan sa delib.. kasi nga daw DAPAT honors ako.. tangina talaga.. BWISIT!! TAENG HELE TEST.. TAENG MGA ACTIVITY NA NAGPAGULO NG UTAK KO NUNG TIME NA YON.. RARR!!

syempre ung reaction ng parents ko.. nd maganda AKO REN NAMAN EH,. pero galit ako sa nanay ko.. nde dahil sa sermon.. DAHIL SA SINABI NIYANG WALANG KATUTURAN.. BWISIT....

sayang ang honors.. rawr..
[kahit pinoy ren prob ko, haha!! kelangan ko sna, 93.. nkuha ko,, 88.. pero aminado nmn lahat ng tao na gnwa ko best ko eh.. at ako ren.. soo... ayus lang.. expected.. DI KATULAD NUNG 68!!]

aliw ung envelope na binigay samin!! ANG CUTE NG PIC NUNG TEACHERS!! sobrang love ko ren ung teachers namin.. ang saya nila eh.. nagpaautograph ako! :))

pics ko,, err.. okei lang? :))

WHOO!! TAMA UNG SPELLING NG PANGALAN NG TATAY KO SA CONFIRMATION CERTIFICATE!! haha.. tnnung ko sa mom ko.. kce nmn.. nung pnacheck, dko cgurado ung name ng dad ko.. kung weNping o weMping.. haha.. weNping pla... as if he cares.. sheesh

hayy.. long day.. galit sa nanay.. GRRRR!!

bawal ako mgNET.. haha.. takas lang 'to

2006-03-29T16:07:00.000-08:00

tae hindi gumagana sa comp ko yung cbox!! as in hindi ko nakikita sa kahit anong blog!!!!!!!! RARR!!! anyway..

I HAD SO MUCH FUN YESTERDAY!!

nagising ako ng 4:40.. naligo at nagbihis.. nakarating sa school ng mga 5:40.. una kong nakita si i-ris.. himala noh,, nauna siya makarating kesa sakin!? ano ean i-ris? bagong buhay!??! haha :D.. pinasok na namin ung bus para ireserve ung pwesto namin.. kami kasi ung nsa pinakalikod.. as in ung 5 seats.. tpos 2 rows pa.. naka dami namin eh no.. so eon,, onti onting dumating sila... tpos sobrang nalate na ung pag alis namin galing AA!! as in mga 6:30 o 7 na eon. tss.. sayang ang precious time. laboo.. SOBRANG tagal ng bus ride,, pero SOBRANG saya ren,, nakatulog si ida at i-ris.. nagKANTAHAN kami.. haha.. rinig na rinig kami sa buong bus,, tpos kinakanta pa namin ung jologs at makaluma! tama eon dba?! so eon, nagenjoy ako sa bus ride,, pero mejo mainit,, kaya pagdating namin dun, plano sana, magswimming agad!!

pero pagdating namin dun, nagpapawis muna kami.. haha!! as in ung dun sa may farm thingie, nagikot kami dun.. ako si iris, clara, ida, joy lang.. sobra. tanghaling tapat.. tpos wla pang kapuno puno..layo ng nilakad namin!! para mag horseback?! tpos umabot kami dun sa dulong dulo,, d naman kami ng horseback.. bili lng ng inumin. may feather pa ako ng ostrich!! haha labo..

kami ni i-ris, di naman kami masydo naghanda,, at di naman masydong marami ung dala namin! haha.. 4 na shirts at 3 shorts 2 swimsuits ba daw ba ang dala!?

magswiswimming na kami.. kaso may problema,, SI IDA WALANG PANG SWIM!?!?! tama ba eon!? so extra swimsuit at shorts ko, hiniram niya.. extra slippers ni clara, hiniran niya... tpos bumili siya ng *yon na yun* hahaha!!! nagswim na kami,, lab.. yun na yon..

NAPANOOD KO UNG LEGACY VIDEO!!!! ung dance naminn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mukha akong tangaaaaaaaaaa!!! rarr rarr rarr!! benta ung itsura ni sheen dun!! dami niyang close up!! tpos di naman gumagalaw!! hahahahha!!

swimming lang kami ng swimming.. wlang tigil eh noh?! ahy meron naman.. labo.. nung mga after lunch (?) na, nagslide lang kami nang slide.. as in ikot ikot lang. dun sa pinakamataas,, ung yellow! sobra,, pabalik balik lang kami,, tpos kung ano ano ung pose.. di na nga namin nasusunod ung rules eh :P.. tpos mei mga nadaganan ako.. ida, i-ris, jae, sorry,, haha!! bsta sobrang saya nun! yung pabalik balik lang tlga kami.. tpos sobrang sumakit yung pwet ko sa kakabagsak at kakaweji [ida ung spelling mo oh] dahil sa slide na yun..

paakyat nanaman kami parang magslide ule,, sabay may nagsabi sa mic ng gr 7,, "all grade 7 students, we will be leaving in 15 minutes." parang kami.. NASA POOL PA KAMI!!!!! sobra,, takbuhan kami pashower. tpos 4 kami sa isang shower room.. tama ba yun!? so eon.. ligo ligo nalang..

pagbalik namin sa gazebo, pinabatch song kami,, LAST TIME na yun na kakanta kami as a batch. as as COMPLETE batch. "together now as we all sing, to show our love is forever.. through all the years that have come and gone, we continue to serve as one" aalis na si miaaaaaa!!! waaaa! :((

pagdating sa bus, triny namin magenjoy,, kahit dinedred namin ang onti onting pagbalik sa AA,,, KUNG KELAN GUSTO NG TRAFFIC WALANG TRAFFIC!? tss.. kakanta sana kme,, tulog lang ung iba.. ung iba samin, sobrang lakas ng trip, napagtritripan ung mga naglalakad o nkskay sa jeep..

nkrting kami ng AA,, mga 7 smething.. nandun na sundo ko :(.. hinug ko LAHAT ng tao, as in LAHAT.. sumakay na sa *service* na kotse namin.. sabay sina maan, camla, janica at sheen.. dun mga kme sa jollibee. tpos umuwi na.. pagalis ni maan, deretso nko sa kama,, tulog agaaaaad!! sakit ng katawan ko!!

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cge, libre mangarap!! RARR

DI NA AKO 7-3er!! mamimiss ko ang 7-3! u guys mean soo much to me! walng kalimutan to ah.. sana frends pren tau khet pnaghiwahiwalay na.. NOOOOOOOO!!! ILOVEU!

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to my dearest kpwet: nagiisa kitang kapwet.. FOREVER! iloveu so much mia, dami na rin nating pinagsamahan.. ILL MISS YOU!! :((:((